The Outcasts

Thanks For Trying

It's sad, isn't it?
What we had and how it just ended,
I guess I made a stupid decision by letting you in,
Maybe I shouldn't have,
Maybe I could've kept to myself,
And stopped all of this from happening,
Stop myself from getting hurt,
Stop myself from feeling used and broken,
Maybe I could've stopped all the pain from happening,
But why?
Why didn't I stop it?
Because I wanted to be loved,
You made me feel loved,
You gave me everything I ever wanted,
You made me happy,
Every time I thought of you,
I would smile in contentment,
I would look as if I were crazy,
As if it were for no reason,
But there was a reason,
You were my reason,
The reason for my smile,
My laughter, my joy,
And I let you,
I let you become everything to me,
I guess it's my fault,
What I'm feeling right now,
You're not the one to blame for it,
I am,
I'm the one to blame for the brokenness I feel,
For the heartache,
For the pain,
For the suffering,
I'm the only one to blame,
I'm sorry if I've ever hurt you,
I'm sorry if I ever said anything wrong,
I'm sorry if I ever did anything to upset you,
I'm sorry I complained so much,
I'm sorry I made things so hard for you,
I'm sorry for every wrong thing I've ever done,
I understand why you left,
It's hard to fix the broken,
And you tried your best,
Thanks for trying,
Thanks for staying, even if our time was short,
Thanks for taking care of me when you were here,
Thanks for everything love,
For every single thing you've done for me,
I thank you,
Sometimes my heart cries out for you,
Sometimes I wish you were still here,
But I've learnt to accept the fact that you won't come back,
That you were never here to stay,
I miss you everyday,
No matter how many days pass by,
I still miss you,
I know that I should let go,
But its just so hard,
I don't know how to let you go,
You were never there for me when I needed you,
I've tried to find someone who could replace you,
But I can't,
There's no one else like you,
Maybe one day,
I'll have someone who'll stay,
I'll always remember you,
But you'll never be the one for me,
I realised that,
I guess I shouldn't trust anyone with my heart,
Because it somehow ends up being more broken than it was before,
But anyway,
Being with you was nice while it lasted,
Bye.