Fluster of Emotions

Stalemate

Attraction is a thing that comes and goes

Whether it be looks, talents, attitude

Or sometimes one never really knows

How I felt about you sometimes was mysterious

I knew I liked your composure and that smile

That half smile, am I imagining, makes me delirious

Of course, we were never meant to be

You were successful, that's how I saw it

Then there was me, living life so carefully

I wanted to better myself, to depend on me not you

As time went by, I eventually got closer to my dreams

Then there was you, I never realized what you were going through

Making yourself better so someday I wouldn't have to worry

But you saw myself succeeding becoming independent

Lost sight of what you were doing everything became blurry

I never knew how you felt about me, if only we had spoken

I was attracted to you and you to me yet somehow out of reach

Funny how improving oneself can actually make one feel broken

Was I never meant to be with you in your arms?

Or are we both afraid of something that could be?

One thing is for sure, I'm still attracted to your charms

Perhaps it's best if we just stay attracted to each other

Afterall, we look at the other's success and better ourselves

But weren't we doing that to be together? So why bother?