MY different world

Rose

Self harming goes together with being depressed right? Well I been depressed ever since I had the abortion, it's been over a year but I hate what I did, my boyfriend Tyrese whom I been with for 6 months thinks I should talk to someone but I'm talking to him so I don't get why he keeps saying I should talk to someone....even though I'm in college my mom still wants me living with her and it sucks...im with Tyrese now just chill and no we haven't been there yet.

" why do you hate your father so much?" I asked him coz his forever complaining about his father not doing stuff for him which lead him to being in gangs, he shrugged

" his just not my typa dude...you coming with me to the college welcome party? it's gon be epic" he says looking excited, I sighed

" I wanna go but you know how my mom can be, she won't even allow me to go" I said, he looked at me then shook his head" what it's the truth, ever since that Cole party thing she don't let me go to any parties" I said

" just tell her some like you going to be sleeping over at Marlene's house with Claudine and your other friends" he says.

" well I guess, it's worse trying -if she says no you can still come get me after 10 though - speaking of Claudine and Marlene, I gotta go check on them, Claudine wanted to talk to us about something kind dropping me off at Marlene 's house? " I asked with.he nodded, we got out his flat and he drove me to Marlene 's place but on the way we passed ambulances and police cars " this crash seems pretty awful " I said checking it out

" with the way the car is crashed I doubt the people in them are alive " Tyrese says, I nodded as he drove past it, we got to lene's place ,i kissed him goodnight coz after here I'm going home.

" hey bestie what's up?" I said yelling into Marlene 's place, they were sitting in the lounge talking

" hey chika" Dene says

" hey sugar- you're late,  I was just telling Dine about what gon happen tomorrow. You coming right? " lene asked, I nodded...gosh I don't even know how I'm gon get out the house but I have to." aight this is what's gon happen and don't dare tell nobody..." she said making me nod,we just like causing trouble.

They told me.the plan then took me back to my house where I was met with my mother's questions, how I hate this house " where have you been? Do you know how many hours I waited for your lil ass at school? " she questioned, I just rolled my eyes

" where's dad?" I asked, since I didn't see him anywhere,she shrugged

" probably dead" she mumbled making me gasp " I'm just kidding, but this is your last warning Rosa" she said making me nod

" uh mom can I ask for something? " I asked She nodded" can I go to our college welcoming party? " I asked then bit my bottom lip hoping she says yes.

" sure, it's tomorrow right? -you can go...I won't be here after work...I have to fly out to Egypt " she said making me jump in joy inside my heart, I smiled

" thank you"i said rushing upstairs to text my boo

To babe: mom agreed for me to be at the party

From babe : aight...prepare to have the time of your life....

I didn't reply back, I was gon say I love him but I'm the only one that says it..he never says it back so I stopped saying it ttoo. As I was drifting to sleep my phone rang,I answered without looking at the number " yes?"

" Cupcake...how was school?" I figured it was Rina

" hey sis, it was cool...can I help you with anything? " I asked.

" actually yes,i need you to come to my house to help me with something"

" now? "

" yes now,i already called mom and told her,i sent a cab there so please "

" okay...." I said then hang up,i sighed then got off my bed and went downstairs were my mom was dragging some luggage?" you going somewhere? " I asked

" yes, I told you last night didn't I? ,you'll be living with your sister for the next 5 -8 weeks, me and your father are both going " she said making my jaw drop.

" can't I sta-"

" no you can't stay here alone Rosa,now go pack some stuff, Rina will buy you clothes if you need more -now shooooe" she said,i groaned, went upstairs to pack...I love my sister but can't this people see that I can't be in the same house let along a room with Junaid in it.after I was done packing I dragged my 4 luggage to the front door and waited for the cab.

45 minutes later being on the road, I finally got to Rina's place... " sup sis" I said ignoring Junaid sitting on the damn couch like he aint got stuff to do"

" ain't you gon greet Naid? - Rosa you gon be in here for a long time so I suggest you get over what ever you have going on with Naid! " Rina snapped at me,i short her a glance...

" Rina whatever, his your man,and nothing to me...I respect you as my sister, but his nothing to me so chill with all that!-now where my room at?" I asked smirking coz Naid looked pissed.

Rina huffed, and groaned then showed me where i'll be sleeping for this coming month and more I think.i unpacked then laid down on my new bed " Rosa come eat " I heard Rina yell,i rolled my eyes, I aint 5 years old.i went downstairs to find her and her so called 'man ' waiting for me...I sat then we prayed and ate.after we were done I offered to clean the mess Rina made coz she can cook but can't clean her one mess..

They went to sleep about 2 hours ago,im watching ' Power ', I received a text...from Tyrese

T: wuup2

M: nothing much, I'm at my sister's place, can't even go to sleep, and you

T:thinkkng of you baby,mind crashing in with me now?

M: you know I can't do that Tyrese, wait till tomorrow night

T: im counting the hours baby...

I didn't reply coz I can't seem to be ready to be all into that with him yet. I'm slowly reaching my sleepy place I got up, turned the TV off then went upstairs in my sleepy mode, I was half way to my now room when I felt sudden hands grab me by my waist which sent chills all over my body. This scent, it's none other than Junaid,i wiggled out of his grip, but he wouldn't cooperate,he lead us to my room then closed the door" Relax would you- im not gon try anything, just wanna set the record straight " he mumbled behind me.

Just right behind my ear, that's my soft spot damn" Junaid what do you want?" I managed to get out.he let go of me. I turned to face him but with some distance.

" I want you to stop wearing then damn clothes you wearing, respect your sister's home and better yet respect me...got that?" he said. I rolled my eyes" lose the attitude too" he added

"You ain't my daddy dude,you said wh-" he cut me off by banging me up to a wall,making me gasp." stop aight!" I said in between a whisper, his grip was too tight on me

" I don't put my hands on a woman, coz my mama taught me better, but you pushing me Rosa,you framed me up and trashed my name, if you think you gon do it again - i'll personally deal with your ugly ass -now I'm going to say this once again and believe that it's the last time I'm gon say it...have some damn respect." he said in between his teeth,looking mad as hell

" I didn't mean to set you up aight,i wanted you but you went for my sister instead so I got mad and did what I did,now let go of me...i'll try being respectful towards yal but I'm not promising anything" I said, he let go of me then got out the room,i sighed heavily, catching up on my breathing...I went to bed then slept my way into my sleep.

Can't this party just start!