MY different world

Alexa

It's been over two whole nights not having Hakeem around - After my lil talk with my ex husband I realized that being a waitress ain't my thing so I ended up looking online for my old job back but different areas hopefully they might get me and hopefully for the same section I was doing. The kids avoid saying anything that has to do with Hakeem even though I know they want to ask, I just haven't been in the mood for both of them at this point ,so I let them play on that game range thing so that I can look at them from a far...they seem happy though but in worried.

To Hakeem : we gotta talk, call me or come to the game range down the road I'm tired of this fighting.

I hoped for a text back but nothing instead I got one from my sister whom i've never been in contact for a long time.

From Dine: hey sis, I been missing you and I was thinking we should hang out, I been at your crib and you ain't there so where you at?

To Dine : at the game range with the kids

From Dine : okay be there in a few

" mom guess what, Lee farted and all the kids ran" Bree came running to me laughing

" yal ain't playing fair,thats cheating " I said chuckling " go on play fair and i'll get yal some to eat soon as your aunty gets here " I said, she nnodded minutes after that Dine saw me and came to where I was sitting " hey stranger, look at you slaying that Red hair like you don't care " I said chuckling

" I see you with them blue hair too,how you though? Been a minute since I seen you " she says hugging me

" you the one being a ghost,i was about to order some for Lee and Bree so you want some? " I asked She nodded, I sent the text to order the food " where was you Chika? - I been with Junaid,mom and dad and everybody but you,Cole got you busy I see " I said eyeing her

" his been going through something with his dad so I was just being there for my man...mom tells me you been stressed which is why I made it my point to be here today -whats up?"I sighed

" it's Hakeem,his drinking more than he should be doing that, I think I might have acted in some way for him to be like that or its about the proposal his still not over the fact that I won't marry him, girl I really don't know but I sent him a text today and he hasn't responded " I say

" I really don't know what to say hey, but hang in there -why you here stressing about it though? " she asked

" I'm stressed about those two there" I said pointing to Lee and Bree" they got suspended at school yesterday, for bad behaviour -im thinking of letting them stag with mom for a week they gon be back in place in no time I swear " I said thinking it

" oh well boobear is here - behind you"she said making me look behind me,i rolled myeyes,i know I wanted to talk to Hakeem but soon as Dine came hee I lost interest " hey Hakeem-let me go see what them kids are doing " Dine said making me mug her, and ask myself why she has to go.

" hey Alexa ", I nodded then waved and gestured for him to have a seat, he said thank you then set..." look I'm h-"

" before you say anything - I don't want your apology no more if you know you gon do it again.so save yourself the energy coz I'm done trying to let you open up to me like that " I snapped, he shook his head and hummed

" I just feel like you not honest with me Alexa, about how you feel about me - "

" but I am honest with how I feel about you Hakeem,what makes you think I'm lying? Have I done anything wrong fo you to call me out my name? " I asked feeling boiled up aagain