Timeless

Chapter 6.

No one understands my pain, yet I have to comfort others.

No one can help me, yet I have to provide guidance for my peers.

People say there is a great difference between being lonely and alone. For me, they are the same.

"Rose... I'm sorry, but... I have to move out."

"Why can't you understand!" I scream in pain.

During lunch break, Thayer comes crying to me again. "Thomas thought I never valued him as a friend... He thought the only reason I talk to him was for a war dream..."

I swear, that Thomas boy. "That's it, let me talk to him."

After lunch break, I call Thomas into my office. "What?" He sounds annoyed.

"I need to talk to you about Thayer."

"What's going on between Thayer and I is none of your business!!!" Thomas screams at me.

I sigh. "Thomas, Thayer actually values you as a friend. The whole war thing is ONE OF THE THINGS she talks about. She actually wants to be close friends with you. You don't even understand how much what you said yesterday impacted her. Thayer is going through freaking depression. You don't even understand how it feels. How about be a nice decent person instead of the drunk idiot you've always been??"

"YOU ARE THE ONE WHO IS ALWAYS RUDE!!! AND YOU'RE TELLING ME TO BE NICE???"

"I ACTUALLY HELP HER WITH HER DEPRESSION AND YOU MAKE IT WORSE. WHO'S NICER HERE?"

Thomas remains silent.

"Leave my office and think about this. I expect you to apologize and make it up for her."

"You expect? You-"

"LEAVE. MY. OFFICE."

Thomas leaves and slams the door behind him. I don't blame him for hating me so much because I admit that I'm cold. I'm unapproachable. Unfriendly. Quiet. But this is the opposite of the old me. How did I end up like this...

Thayer is actually the first time I've been nice ever since... Never mind. The past should be left behind.

After work, I buy some fast food and go to the park, like everyday. This new job is a little farther from the park but I still go, trying not to break my routine.

I thought about Thayer and Thomas. They are both talented and intelligent, and I feel like... fate brought them together. Then, fate brought me to them. Both of them impacted my life a lot. As I was thinking about this, my phone rings.

"Hello?"

"Rose... Can we meet anytime soon?"

"No."

The person on the other end of the phone sighs. "Can't you just forgive me?"

"No."

"Why are you always so cold??? It's like you put a barrier between you and everyone. Is this because of me?"

"No."

"Can you say anything besides no?"

"Bye."

I hang up and stare into the distance. This park provides a very good view of the sunset. It also brings back a lot of memories.

"Rose." A voice comes from behind me.

"Hello, Thayer." I keep watching the sunset.

"You know my life pretty well... But can you tell me more about your life?"

I look at her. "There's nothing interesting." Only if unfortunate events count as interesting.

"Come on. Tell me one memory that you wish to treasure forever."

"Performing on stage looking at my fans from the audience cheering me on. "

Rose! Rose! Rose! Rose!

I smile. "I want to thank everyone for coming here tonight, but I have unfortunate news.

This will be my last concert because of personal reasons. I loved performing for you guys and thank you for the support."

I hold my tears back. "I'm gonna go. Need a ride?" I offer.

Thayer nods.

Back in my apartment, I pull out my guitars. "keep music as a hobby." I wipe off the dust of the piano. I tune the cello. I clean the flute. I set up the drum set.

Why did I stop doing this and move on to computer engineering? This is what I really love in life!

But you don't always get what you want.

TBC.