silence//phan

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After my little "scene" at Phil's house I figure he doesn't want to be friends anymore. The look of pure terror on his face when I woke up, trying to scream. He knows just how messed up I am, and no one wants to be friends with someone like that.

I also know Alice is probably on the edge of giving me back already. I mean, Phil had to call her to come get me when she was at work because I wouldn't move or listen to him.

I was too focused on not having a panic attack again to do that.

Now I'm back home. Alice seems upset, but she's trying to hide it from me.
"Dan, what happened at school today?" She asks patiently for about the 4th time tonight. I shake my head.

"Why don't you write it down for me?" She suggests. I sigh. She's not going to give up on this, is she? I nod.

She gives me a small smile before passing a piece of notebook paper to me with a pen. I start writing what those boys did to me in the pool.

I pass the paper to her, and she reads over it.
"Oh, Dan. What an awful thing for them to do! How did you get out?" She asks.

I write down how Phil dragged me out of the water and saved me. How I had a panic attack and we went back to his house.

"But Dan, why did you have a panic attack?" She questions. I shake my head.
"Please tell me what happened." She says.

She passes me another sheet of paper. I look down at it and consider my options.
A) tell her what happened and most likely be sent back.
B) don't tell her and be asked about it again and again until she gets sick of me and send me back.

Option A seems less painful all in all. I pick up the pen and start writing.

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Alice looks like she's about to burst into tears. Silent tears are already streaming down my cheeks.

"Oh, Dan. Come here." She says in a sad voice before squeezing the life out of me in a hug.

She gives me a little talk. How she wants to get me in therapy. I raise my hands to sign something for the first time in a few hours.

So you're not giving me back? I ask.
"Of course not. Now how about I make some dinner." She says.

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The next morning Alice decides I shouldn't go to school.
"You had a pretty rough day yesterday. I know how kids are, and I also know you need a little mental break." She says. I smile.

"You know, this could never compare to what you went through but I was bullied pretty badly when I came out. I came out to my family first, and they were perfectly fine with it. But then I came out to my best friend.

She decided that we couldn't be friends anymore, then she spread it all over the school. I was always getting shoved, tripped, and beat up, but look at how it turned out for me! I'm the dentist and they're all flipping burgers in fast food restraunts." Alice tells me.

I give a small giggle and cover my mouth with my hoodie sleeve.
"I have to go to work, now. Maybe after I get off we could go see a movie, or I could take you and Phil to a movie." She says. I smile and nod.

Thanks Alice. You're the best. I sign.
She finishes her last few tasks before heading out the door and to work.

I spend my day watching baking programs and sipping tea that I made to soothe my still very sore and painful throat.

After school lets out, I hear knocks on the front door. Phil. Will he want to still be friends?

I open the door and I don't even have time to react before Phil throws his arms around me and gives me a huge hug.
"I missed you today! School is so boring without you!" He says into my shoulder.

When we pull away I sign back to him.
I'm sorry. Alice didn't want me to go, because of yesterday. I explain.
"Oh, I totally get it. And are you alright? After last night I was really worried about you and then you weren't at school." He says. I nod.

"You didn't really miss much at all. I just wanted to come over and check on you, maybe hang out for a while." He says. I nod, glad he still wants to n around me.

"Sorry I overreacted about you missing. You're just the first one to put up with my annoying self in.. well almost a year." He says, mumbling the last part.

No, that's perfectly fine. Don't apologize. I sign. He gives a weak smile.

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"We should play a question game." Phil says.
Why? I sign.
"So we can get to know eachother better. I know I've only known you for 3 days, but I feel like we're on the way to a great friendship and I hardly know anything about you." He rambles.

This might not be all that great of an idea. I agree anyway.

"I'll start. What do you want to do when you graduate?" He asks. I think. What do I want to do.

I honestly have no idea
I don't know really. Maybe university? I don't really have money though, so that's out. I want to do something meaningful. I answer.

What about you? I ask.
"I dunno. I want to do something fun. Like work with animals or something like that." He tells me.

"Okay. Um, what's your favorite animal?" He asks.
Llamas by far. I sign. Going for another topic, I think of a different question.

What music do you like? I ask.
"I love muse and My Chemical Romance.. Oh and I like Panic! At the Disco and Fall Out Boy. You?" He asks.

Oh my god such good music taste!
Oh my god I love all the same music!
I sign to him, exitement in my eyes.

"Finally someone! No one ever likes the music that I do." He says.

Same with me. I sign.
"So what's your favorite show?" He asks.
I dunno, I like supernatural a lot right now, you?
"Buffy the vampire slayer by far." He says. I giggle.

A/N

Again, even though no one is reading this I figure I might as well post chapters while I still have free time.. If you read Broken//Phan, you'll know that I am in Showchoir and have little free time, but competition season is over now.

But, I'm starting high school in the fall and if I get into showchoir there I will literally have no free time until I graduate basically because when I'm not at school or doing homework, I'll be practicing.

But fuck it, I'm trying out anyway because it's my 'passion' and this Showchoir is the top in my state!

Wish me luck lol tryouts are in 2 weeks..

Anyways, I talked a while.. I hope you enjoyed this chapter!
~Rowan