It's funny how fast things can go from being okay to be very bad.
I am relapsing... hard. It all came back so fast. I stopped taking the prozac, 2 days later i was having a manic episode, went back to self harming and counting calories. I totally lost control. I'm back to letting the anxiety and the eating disorder control me. It's been 3 days since i've went to school because i'm just terrified by the idea of going there? I've also been avoiding my psychologist i don't really know why, i guess i am afraid to tell her how bad i've been feeling lately. I've been lying to my friends and avoiding them because i'm paranoid that they hate me and don't want to see me.
I hate being back to ground zero but at the same time i missed not eating? I know it's messed up but i can't help it. I feel somewhat in control when i skip meals, workout and feel dizzy.
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fatty's story
Non-FictionRandom thoughts that goes through the head of a 18 years old girl who's dealing with depression and eating disorders. I DO NOT think mental illnesses are "cute" or "trendy" nor do I encourage dangerous behaviours. *TRIGER WARNING eating disorder, se...
