Forever My Fan || Park Jimin ||

The Pain

Jimin POV
I remembered at the moment i approach her just now and held her hand. I looked right into her eyes. Her eyes were kept quite secret. I don't know why she chose to breakup. When I pulled her to me, she back off. She looked at me with a keen eye.

I could see through her eyes, breakup is the last choice that she has. But this isn't fair to me. She didn't give a chance for me to understand her and talk. She had something I didn't know and she didn't want me to know. I could see the misery that when she hugged me and held me for the last time with tears. At that time my heart was crushed and shattered like glass falling.

I've never felt this way even before I ever had a relationship and that relationship failed. I feel the pain. I never thought Hyerin will leave me with unanswered questions. The way she spoke like she'll go and will never appear again.

I've always loved her with devotion and purity; I had in mind that we were going to be together forever. But things,they never stay the same now. There comes a dark night after every sunny day. Being away from her made me realize it was never the physical love which made it special, it was something different - a connection between two souls.

Luckily we've been practicing for tomorrow. I just shut myself in a room and not talk to anyone. That night I think profusely. If it were Hyerin wanted me to do, I will do. She wants the best for me so I will do for her. I promised myself that Hyerin was the only girl in my life.

Hyerin POV
I could only cry on the way home. My brother tried to calm me but I'm still crying. When I got home, I went into my room. I looked toward the luggage filled with my belongings. I realized that I'll leave Jimin. It makes me sobbed until I ignore the knock on the door. I know my mother who was knocking on the door, but for now I just wanna be alone.

As much as I tried to hold it in, the pain came out like an uproar from her throat in the form of a silent scream. The beads of water started falling down one after another, without a sign of stopping. I hit the wall and scream. The muffled sobs wracked against my chest. The world turned into a blur, and so did all the sounds. The taste. The smell. Everything was gone. The last painful emotion slammed against me.

There's such sadness in leaving a place of strong love, a place where fond memories grew as fast as the clover in the grass. I know I will savour each memory so strongly that it will almost live once more. I know that the strands of love will keep us together even when we are far apart. I only have to reach out with my mind and there you are, waiting to shower me with the love you always did. But right now it is my time to depart, to do what I was born to do, to make the changes and the sacrifices.

I lie on my bed and look at my phone with tears. That night I delete my fansite account. After deleted them, I turn off my phone. I don't know when I began to sleep. For sure, I sleep in tears.

The next morning

Jimin POV
That morning I woke up and I realized that my day will not be the same as before. I get ready and do like nothing happened last night. Although the incident happened last night was very painful, but I know it happened for a reason. I have to look good in front of my fans because I know and certainly, Hyerin will see it. That's what she wants and I will give it.

Hyerin POV
I woke up early because my flight was early in the morning. I called my friends before I leave for the airport. In the morning, I went down with a cheerful face. My family, especially my mother felt strange because yesterday I went back home with tears and in the morning I wake up full of joy. As if nothing happened last night. My family send me to the airport.

While waiting for the plane to depart, I look at the accounts of other fans. Jimin look nice and not hurt. I am happy to see so although I knew behind that beautiful smile there's tears that have been caused by me. I shed tears. I'm sorry I made you hurt.
" you did great Jimin. This is what I want. Pretend like nothing happen. I'm proud of you. " I said that while looking at his photos on that event.