from a pragmatic lover, a zealot of 'everything happens for a reason',
to a soul beyond reach;
here is an apologetic letter, short and on point, hopefully:
i'm sorry it took me a while to figure out things; yours and mine both.
i'm sorry i was so much of a millenarian; relies on rationality and logic,
that i forgot we were once counting only on instincts and feelings,
that brain and heart are actually inseparable; and i should've known this all too well,
but almost is never enough, and knowing that i actually had a chance to make it right;
doesn't make it hurt less than it already is.
