Everything Falls Into Place

twenty one

Alexander looked at me puzzled.
"I um" I paused sketchy "gotta go it's getting late"
I didn't want to go. I wanted to stay there with him, but I knew what I needed to do and this wasnt it. I stood up and walked towards the window and crawled in, Alexander came in behind me. He still didn't reply to my excuse.
I turned to look at Alexander who was looking at me up and down all over.
"Bye" I half smiled.
"I'll walk you"
"No I know where to door is, and I'm right across the street so you don't gotta do that"
"I want to"
"It's fine" I turned then walked down the stairs. I didn't take the time to look at the many of cat statues instead I rushed to get to my house. I opened the door and exited Alexander's house. Once I got to my front door; I walked​ inside and didn't see my grandmother, grandfather, or Mather anywhere; nobody's home. I went straight to my room and I kicked my sneakers off and flopped back on my bed. My face tightened as I tried to block any tears from escaping.
Why me?
Everything is happening all to fast. I don't want this!! More like I don't need it.. I'm catching feelings for Alexander that I don't want.
I couldn't hold my tears back, they escaped anyway.
The tears began to stream
Down my face causing my make up to go with it.
I sat uo amd placed my hands in my face and cried...I don't know what else to do but cry. "UHH!" I screamed. I can't take it! I can't tell if I'm mad or sad!!! Mad at myself for liking him or sad because I want to be with him.
My fist swung in a viliont force and hit the dry wall in my bedroom causing a massive hole to form...I don't care...I couldn't hold back my fist again so I knocked a second hole beside it; I slid my body down the wall. I placed my fragile head in my angry hands. More tears slid down my red flaming cheeks. My heart was pumping so hard it felt like someone lit a match in my chest.
I stopped taking my anger medicine a few months ago...As anyone can tell...
An hour later I finally got the urge to get up. I wobbled my hurt body down the steps. I made my way into the kitchen to get me a glass of water. Once I made it into the kitchen I grabbed a glass then opened the fridge to get some water, when I noticed a bottle of Jack Daniels was sitting there. I took a breath then grabbed the bottle. 'There's only one way to solve this problem' I thought. I left the glass in the kitchen then took the bottle to my room. I took a sip and sat back on my bed.

After the bottle was empty I knew I was drunk. I stood up and staggered my body around. I walked to the bathroom and looked in the mirror then smirked.
'You know what he ain't gonna do this to me!' I thought ' I'm gonna make him feel the same way I feel'
I tossed the bottle on my bed then made my way towards the steps. I took once step and felt my foot slip; I began to roll down the many of steps. My body flopped around until I came to the bottom. My head hit the bottom step with tons of force. Things got dark and my mind went blank

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CLIFF HANGER!!