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why i've been absent [mental health + relationships]

[I'm posting this here but I'll delete it later. I wanted to share it since I know not a lot of you know I have a personal book where I share these life updates. That book is called : Bishounenlover Exposed! I just wanted to make sure everyone sees so I'm posting both here & there]

HEY HEY HEY MY BEAUTIFUL WEEBS !

its been awhile, hasn't it ?

Wuz good fam?

I'm really sorry I suddenly disappeared like that. Like, I literally made a new years resolution to be more active & I already failed. LOL.

but yeah, there's a lot of reasons why this has happened actually. so, for starters if you've seen the title it says "mental health + relationships" so I'll talk more about this I guess.

I honestly didn't want to mention this since i don't want people to think I'm begging for attention or something... but like, I feel like you guys deserve to know what's up.

So basically, I've been a mess lately. I have pretty bad anxiety so I'm in the process of seeing a psychiatrist and they're most likely giving me meds for it. Not yet, but we've discussed it. Like, it's always been bad but it's gotten worse. I always couldn't leave my house because of my anxiety, but somehow, it's even worse than that. Like, I can't even go to school anymore. And it's just bad... I had a presentation on the day I came back after Christmas break and I had to come home after because I was having breathing problems, and I felt sick , and I cried and ... Just the usual feeling I get when my anxiety takes over in full power. So fun...

So yeah this week was hard for me so i could not find the will to write. I felt so bad since I wanted to write so badly, and like I promised you guys I'd update. So I'm really sorry fam.

So, at the moment. I'm getting professional help about my issues and i'm slowly trying to improve so I can get better. Like, I can't even go out with my family these days, or even go out to timmies (Tim Hortons, its a Canadian thing) with my bro , its just effecting my life negatively so I'm trying my best to get help. it was so hard to get my mom to agree to let me see a professional since she doesn't think these are real issues (long story, I'll explain another time lol) so yeah. Now that I have the chance, I'm trying my best.

Part 2 of why I haven't updated:

The relationship part is... well, I'm in a relationship lol. Someone was crazy enough to want to date me, the sassy, perverted weeb you all read stories from LOL. but yeah. Although he lives far...  like, he lives in a different Provence (again, CANADA. Its not like the states where y'all have states LOL) so yeah he's making my life a lot more tolerable tbh. he's really sweet and caring and he's just really cute in general. He just makes me really happy & I'm a very lucky girl :D & it's also still relatively new so i've been trying to give him all my attention... well as much as possible haha.

So there's my mental health issues, my boyfriend, trying to talk to friends while I'm busy, and... Oh! My semester in school is almost over so that's been pretty fuckin stressful lol. So yeah these are all the reasons why i've been inactive.

but anyways ! what i wanna say is it'll be harder for me to update with all that's going on right now. but! I will still find a way to update, just give me some time! I'll try to do something after exams which is soon !

So yeah, I hope y'all can allow me just this once & bless me with some time to get a grip on myself. i'm sorry i've been a shitty author lately...

anyways ! I'll be back soon my lovely children LOL 🌈❤

love you all ! Stay fabulous guys !~
*throws glitter* 

- Bishounenlover