BELOVED [h.s.]

Chapter 14. Edited.

"That's the boy, you love him, right?" Jacob said behind my back.

"I don't love him," I was telling the truth.

"You want him," he confirmed.

"No,"

"You like him,"

"Yes," I answered without thinking it twice.

"Well, go for him," his voice suggested he was sad. I felt worse than before.

"What?" I was astonished for his support.

"If you think you are happy with him, go for him,"

"I... I just met him, we will not be in a relationship," I clarified, I was telling him the truth. He wasn't my boyfriend but he was still my best friend. "Why are you acting this way? I thought you hated him because I...

"I want the best for you. Maybe I'm just scared of being alone forever because you were the only girl capable to make me feel important, and I don't know if someone will bear with me. I love you like more than a friend but if you don't see me that way, its okay," he was beautiful. I wanted to cry again, I burst into tears and he cuddled me so tight, just like Harry did days ago.

"I love you, Jac." I really meant it, but like a friend and I knew he understood how.

"I love you too; now let's go inside because its freezing,"

All week I spent time with my brother and his girlfriend. They planned a picnic for us three in a forest away from town.
I thought we were going to be the only ones there but we weren't. There were a lot of families. Danny went to search a place for us to sit.

"And how's your boyfriend... sorry, your friend. The famous one," Julie said.

"I don't know... he is like mad with me."

"Why? If you can tell me, of course,"

I told her what happened on Christmas and she was astonished because it seemed like a "movie" and she said that according to the things that happened and her love knowledge, Harry wanted me more than a friend.

"Just call him. If he answers politely he doesn't give a damn about you, and if he is angry or his voice is strange, he is hurt and he wants you,"

"Okay," I wanted to know. I took out my phone from my jacket's pocket and called him. I thought I had called another number when a phone began ringing just when I called. I hung up the phone, and the phone behind us stopped ringing.

"That's weird," Julie exclaimed. "Try again," The same thing happened twice again.
"This is just creepy," we searched people behind the trees or maybe a lost phone that was jamming with my call.

"Here!" Julie yelled while handing me an iPhone. "Now call again..."

I did it and on the screen appeared "Linda" and a picture of me playing with Lux in the hotel; I never took that picture so it was even creepier.

"Maybe it is Harry's phone," I said.

"He has a picture of you when you call? OMG!!!" she shouted. "He definitely likes you so much!" she cheered and jumped like a little girl.

I blushed when he came to us and he saw me with his phone in my hand.

"What are you doing with my phone?" he was calm but serious and frowning. He was wearing black rubber boots, black tight jeans, a gray sweater and a brown jacket that covered his head with a hood and he had too a scarf around his neck and on the top of his head. A woman with black hair and with a black coat came behind him, I was so jealous now knowing I really liked him.

Why did he overreact when seeing me with Jacob? Why did he kiss me? Why was he acting so weird if I just was one of the other girls he went out with?

"We found it in the grass," I gave it to him; I wanted to know why he had my picture there. "To know if it was yours I called you and Julie and I found something interesting..." I called him again. I wanted to provoke him, just because I was the moody one now.

My picture with Lux appeared on the phone and Harry blushed more than me. He put it in his pocket.

"I don't know what happened there, maybe Lux did it,"

"Lux?" Julie and I laughed.

"I don't know Linda," he was angry maybe because we were mocking him, l felt mean till he began laughing hysterically.

"Okay. But that's creepy." I was still laughing.

"I just loved the pic," He shrugged it off and placed his hands into his pockets. Then he rocked back and forth on his heels.

"Well, its okay. We must go... nice to see you and" I looked at the woman. "You too," I was trying to be nice.

"Mrs. Winston... well, Elizabeth," she was married. Oh.

"Nice to meet you Elizabeth,"

I turned around with Julie and he grabbed my arm.

"Can I talk to you a second? Uhm...alone?"

Elizabeth and Julie gave a step back.

"Sure," I felt butterflies in my stomach like always.

I followed him to a tree not too far from where we were. He leaned back in the tree and put his feet on a tree trunk. I stood up in my good ankle and crossed my arms above my breast because I was freezing.

"I just feel so bad for running away from you that way and acting like an idiot. It's your life and you can do whatever you want. It was just shocking, like you in that intimate way with someone because you seem such an angel, like you don't do anything like that and do just what everyone else tells you and you know. It was weird, and I ran away because I felt uncomfortable for ruining you that moment with the boy,"

It was just a freaking kiss like the one he gave me or maybe less than that. I wasn't a little girl. I had enough with my mom calling me that way and not letting me live my life how I pleased.

"No problem," I didn't want any more argues with him so I just wanted to leave it this that way.

"Really?"

"Yep" I nodded. "I have a picnic with my brother and my future sister in law so I just... I need to go,"

"Another quick thing," he stood up properly, "just a second, please,"

"Tell me,"

"I just want to apologize for that surprising kiss... I didn't know what I was thinking about. It was wrong and I just want us to forget it happened, for our friendship,"

That hurt me so much.