Memories

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It was sad
It was jut too sudden
After all we went through
You decided to leave
The worst part is leaving on my Bday month
Will we ever talk again
Will we ever text again
What's happening to us
We used to text and tell each other everything
Now we are broken apart
I know it hasn't affected you
But it hurts me
I'm sure you've already move on

I stay up all night
Trying to think of a way to bring us back together
You brought me something nobody ever has
Since you left
I've never felt that sort of feeling
I feel like crying and bringing it all out
But it just isn't working
My tears dried up many years ago
Now what are we
Enemies
Friends
I have no idea
I wish we could start all over
I wish we could begin
I still want to be close by to you

It plays again
Every image
Everything we shared
What shall I do now

I try to erase you from my memories
You keep coming back
Everything reminds me of you
It's hurting me
It kills me
You caused me a big time damage
I never knew I would fall that deep
I thought I had everything under control
Now just because of you
I'm looked at differently
Talked about differently
I'm not they same person
People use to know years ago
As soon as I met you
I began to change
I thought i was fooling you

I thought I was revenging on what you did to the others
But instead not
I was trapped
Trapped by your words
Your fake emotions
Fake love
You lied
Everybody lied
You made me feel that with you
I'm ok
I'm free
I'm loved
I have nothing to worry about
I brought all my concentration to you
I got distracted by you
At first I wasn't
But it got too deep
You fooled me
You never encouraged me to do a right good thing
Apart from sleeping early
We could talk and tease each other all night long
But now
All I can do
Is watch, wait and cry
And ask myself this question
What happened to me
What happened to you
What happened to us
Could we every stand a chance and be as we were

One day
One day which is very soon
I know you would come to me
But I'll just not be available
Or I'll just ignore you

I've always tried to ignore you
But everywhere I go
I always here your name
So what will I do
I'll just forget
Cause that was a million years ago

It's just so terrifying 
I never knew it would end this way
It's horrible
How could you
How could I
Couldn't I be more smarter
What happened
Now I treat people the way I should have treated people at first
I regret my actions
But some how not
Cause maybe God wants you to meet the wrong people before finally meeting the right person so that you would be grateful

All I ask
This should be our last time
Last hug
Last memories we share
It just want to deep
It will be hard for me

Especially
,Mmm
We just don't talk anymore
Which is the most painful part
I'm just wondering is what I did wrong to you

Could this be my last night would you
Just hold me like I'll never leave
Maybe It was just my foolishness
All this will come to an end
Very soon
But I don't  know when

As I wrote this I was listening to Shameless by the Weekend:

Here's just the second part;

Sing it louder
Sing it louder
Who's going to love you like me
Like me
Sing it louder
Sing it louder
Who's going to touch you like me
Like me

Say you it will be the  last time
all you needed was a little closure
Say it will be the last time
But you are begging me to come over
Come over

Say who's going fuck you like me
I don't want to hurt you but
You live in the pain
I'm not trying to say it
But it's what you became

You want me to fix you
But it's never enough
That's why you always call me
Cause you are scared to be loved

I'll always be there for you
I'll always be there for you
I'll always be there for you girl
I have no shame

I'll always be there for you
I'll always be there for you
I'll always be there for you girl
I have no shame

Say who's going fuck you like me
I don't want to hurt you but
You live in the pain
I'm not trying to say it
But it's what you became

You want me to fix you
But it's never enough
That's why you always call me
Cause you are scared to be loved

I'll always be there for you
I'll always be there for you
I'll always be there for you girl
I have no shame

I'll always be there for you
I'll always be there for you
I'll always be there for you girl
I have no shame

Xoxoxo ❤️
And enjoy reading the book