Sandstorm

Back_Again_Ch.11

I ignored it and kept running, I couldn't bear it. The thought of me, actually... Confessing. That, I did not believe. What twisted words did I spew the other night, the ugliness of the truth that I wasn't that drunk, that I knew what was going on that night. I couldn't keep running and I stepped into an alleyway. I leaned up against the brick walls, breathing heavily as my head tilted back. I'm a dog, a dog stuck in a cage. I looked about, slowly starting to recognize where I was. When I passed out Haruki took me back to the district base. We're in district 2.

"Hinaka!!! I know you're near here!" I head Haruki's voice not far off.

_This_is_it___Are_you_going_to_stay?__

I continued to lean against the brick wall. Am I to stay in these districts. With the noble I have mixed feelings for. Or will I take this last chance to escape. 

To escape to return back to being a drunk looser.... to escape and live as a slum and more so likely die in an alleyway...

"Hinaka!" I hear his voice again, it's closer this time.

_Hinaka_This_Is_Your_Choice__ _ _

I take a deep breath and I slump to the ground, still keeping my body propped against the brick wall.

"Hina!" I hear his voice cry out and footsteps towards me. I lift my head up and look up at the tall figure making his way towards me. Once Haruki gets to me he slumps down beside me and wraps his arms around me in a hug.

"Why did you run Hinaka?" Haruki asks me again, his hands taking mine.

"I just didn't know what to do. Everything is so sudden to me. Alright...?" I say quietly, not able to meet Haruki's eyes*

"Just come back with me... I don't want to loose you again." Haruki says getting up and pulling me up along with him.

"Okay Haru," I manage to reply, it seems like an eternity as he leads me back to his little place. I keep my head down and only look at our shuffling feet as we head back. Once we get there he sits me down on a chair and stands beside me. I sit there in the chair, contemplating everything. Just, everything.

"Hinaka, I have something I have to tell you," Haruki says, breaking through my thoughts. I look up, meeting Haruki's gaze then.

"I know this may be so sudden to you. But for me it hasn't been. For nearly half my life I've had these feelings for you. But I've been too afraid to admit them or show them. Since it's fucked up to be like this, especially for being a noble and all. When we drifted apart in the academy I broke. I couldn't do anything about these mobs of people surrounding me. No matter what I did they were always there. I tried to push them away Hina. I really did. But in the end I let the worst get to me. And I caved into it." Haruki says, his gaze leaving mine once he finishes. I found I couldn't bring myself up to look back at him but I did manage to say, "Well... I guess we all have our fucky positions..."

_10_points_for_emotional_help___

Oh fuck off Gurifin.

"I guess so..." Haru replies before turning and heading to the bathroom. I sigh in defeat as I see his figure disappear behind the door. I fucking suck at these kinds of things. I really damn do. I get up and walk over to the door and knock on it.

"Haru, I know you wouldn't magically need to use the restroom. Can you come back out here?" I say through the door. There's no response but I do hear water splashing a bit of rustling before Haruki opens the bathroom door. His face is a little wet and I notice out of the corner of my eye his hand quickly tug down his sleeve.

"Yeah...?" Haru replies, acting like nothing was happening.

"You go wash off your face if something is on your mind. You did it all the time when you were younger. Remember "wash" the thoughts away," I point out.

"Of course something's would be on my damn mind. My lifetime crush is being his dumb self again in my apartment room," Haru huffs.

"Well what about this..." I grab his wrist and hold it up to my face. "I noticed you pull down your sleeve."

"It's nothing Hina," Haru snaps wrapping his wrist away. Oh sure... nothing... So instead of being a reasonable human being I tackled Haru. Pinning him onto the ground. He was surprisingly a lot more weaker than I thought he'd be even though he's taller than me by far. I pin him down and stay there.

"HINA! Get off me!!" Haru cries out, I ignore him and I pull back his shirt's sleeves. I saw long lines down both of his arms. Scars.

"Haru..." I gasp, partly in shock, partly in worry. Haru lays there as still as a rock, not moving, probably out of fear. I slowly get off him and look at him as he sits back up.

"I'm sorry..." Haru says weakly, pulling his sleeves back down, like it really matters now though.

"Did I cause that...?" I ask weakly, it never occurred to me that Haru could've been suffering in his own emotional pain.

"No... not really... I did. I let all my negative thoughts get the best of me. How I'm shameful. How wrong I am..." he trails off looking away. I scoot back over to him and catch him off guard with a hug.

"Haru you're not shameful, you're not wrong. You're a great person okay. Even if I have hated you for half my life I just didn't know what was happening on your side. But now I do. So I have no good reason to hate you anymore. This all was a shitty misunderstanding." I say, not letting go. Haru hesitates before wrapping his long arms around me. We both embrace in a hug for a few moments before I feel something warm fall onto my cheek, I look up to see tears falling from Haru's face.

"Haru! Are you okay?!" I exclaim, suddenly panicked all over again.

"Yes yes... I'm fine Hina. It's just that, I never believed we'd ever reunite again," Haru admits as he looks back down at me, a small grin forming on his face. I sigh with relief that it was nothing bad and I wipe the tears off his face with the back of my thumb.

"Well, I guess now we can be happy together again. Like the good ol' days," I grin back, feeling a warm bubbly feeling in my chest as I start to think about all the crazy bullshit we could do together.

"Yup... I guess we can. Finally," Haru chuckles. Ruffling up my white fluffy hair before sticking his nose into it.

I'm totally falling for this guy...