I'm fine-a shyland fanfiction

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*next day*
Shane's pov
Ryland was in recovery since the pole had a sharp spoke on it that cut through his skin and maybe a vein so he needed surgery but the doctors don't know if that will save him
My baby was dying in there and I was just in a waiting room helplessly crying with drew by my side who had stayed with me last night
"Do you want me to go grab you food cause I'm gonna go to chipotle quick?"drew asked softly
"No thank you on the food but could you get me a diet coke?"I asked looking up at him
He nodded and I handed him my keys as I waited for any sign of Ryland being alive I anxiously tapped my fingers against my leg as hot tears rolled down my face as I thought back to when I first saw the cuts on Rylands arms,when I was stupid enough to believe his excuses of not eating,when he would cry at night when he thought I was asleep because I had my eyes squeezed shut trying to jeep my sobs,screams,and tears all inside for months but if I had stopped blinking back the tears,confronted the messages,and taken away the blades the first time I found them he wouldn't be lying half fucking dead,It seemed as if thousands of tears just fell down my face but I didn't sob,didn't stop a perfectly in-lined breath,or even blink;I couldn't it was as if I was in a trans,not a happy one,not a scared one,not a sad one,but one that seemed as if my body had been taken over
"Shane?"drew said shaking my shoulder
I looked up at his confused face with one of my own
"I've been asking your name for five fucking minutes you scared me"he sighed
"Oh um s-sorry but t-thanks"I slightly shuttered as he handed me my soda
I sipped it but was interrupted by a womans' voice
"Shane yaw?"she said sadly
I loomed up and walked over
"Hey"I sighed
"Come with me"she said her voice tense but also caring
Oh god is he dead
The worst thoughts came to my mind as we walked
"I-is he...d-d-dead?"I choked out
"No but at this point it would take a miracle for him to survive"she said opening the door as I saw a pale,peaceful looking Ryland laying in the bed
"I'll give you two a minute"she said softly
"Thank you"I sobbed as she closed the door lightly