Should I? [S4S Short Story]

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Dedicated to my little brother Scott Michael Long II.
💙Rest in Paradise💙
🌇4/18/08~6/19/10🌆
I love and miss you papa
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Chris was dressed in a black nice fitted suit with a pink bow tie. Jayla was in a wheel chair with the same thing on but she had a white button up underneath. Everyone else around them wore mostly black with pink and white accessories. Some with shirts of her face on them. It was a saturday morning. A morning that was not so glorious. Sniffles and cries could be heard behind both of them.

The funeral director and some guys kept telling everyone to give some space for both Chris and Jayla as this was a hard moment for them.

Marlee's casket was fully covered with Hello Kitty. She absolutely loved Hello Kitty. She fell in live with it and everything she ever wanted had Hello Kitty on it.

(Just a visual to give an idea of what it looked like minus the name)

"Mommy look!" Three year old Marlee said pointing at the tv. It was showing a new toy out and she loved kittens. They were furry and cute to her and this topped the cake of her obsession.

"You want it?" Chris asked. She nodded her head profusely. Chris chuckled and kissed Marlee on her head. Believe it enought, Chris went and got her that toy and since then loved it.

Chris let the tears run down her face. Sammy couldn't make it. She had just got out the hospital and she was going through mourning too.

Jayla reached up and grabbed Chris's hand. Chris felt her arm being tugged on. She looked over to see Jayla struggling to stand. Chris reacted quickly and helped her up.

They started to lower her into the ground and everyone slowly crowded around. Chris dropped to her knees letting all her emotions out.

"No baby don't leave me please!" She yelled. She hit the ground and screamed for her once more.
"Marlee please. Mommy needs you!" She cried. Jayla slowly bent down to her level and hugged her. They both shared tears as she was lowered where she was supposed to be. They didn't start shoveling until everyone stopped by and threw pink and white roses, that were provided by Jayla's grandmother, into the grave on top of her casket which already had pink, white and some yellow roses.

Everyone consoled and prayed for Chris and Jayla. On the other side of the cemetery was the service for Markie. Only her friends and family were there, but Markie's mother decided to walk over here along with Markie's sister once everyone left and it was just Chris and Markie there along with the funeral directors and the guys burying her.

Chris and Jayla looked up to see Renee and Miesha.

"What?" Chris asked getting up. She helped Jayla up too and sat her back in her wheel chair.

"We came to say goodbye." Miesha said with an attitude.

"Well say it and leave please." Jayla said. Renee and Miesha gave her the eye.

"And just who are you to be talking?!" Renee yelled.

"Her fucking father!" Chris yelled. Renee and Miesha scowled.

"It's your fault that My baby is dead!" Renee yelled breaking into tears. How fucking dare she? Yea I never knew Markie wasn't her father but I didn't tell her to kill herself let alone kill my daughter!

"How the fuck is it my fault?! I didn't tell your bitch ass daughter to come to house and kill my child! I didn't tell her to shoot her! Nor did I tell the sick bitch to Kill herself. I know she was hurting but got dammit she killed the only person that made me want to live on this damn Earth!" I yelled with tears stinging my eyes.

"You didn't even want me to have her, so you been thought she was dead. And you!" She said pointing at Miesha, "Bitch I should put you right next to your damn sister. You the one that gave her the idea of making me have the abortion. Even when I kept the baby you kept feeding her a bug saying she wasn't hers. Yea you was right but I don't give a damn anymore y'all never cared about me or Marlee, so fucking leave and leave us alone! She took the most precious little girl out of this world and I hope she burns in hell.." Chris said.

Renee and Miesha didn't respond. How could they? They walked back off over to watch Markie be buried.

The finally started burying her and they were both escorted back to the limo. They were driven back to the church where everyone else was eating. They waited until they got there to feed the family which was Chris,  Niecy, and Jayla along with her family. Everyone was saddened by her sudden and violent death. Niecy took it hard. She lost it once they closed the casket and passed out.

Chris remembers first walking into the service held for Marlee.

Chris and Jayla walked into the church which was filled with family and friends and other people showing their respects.

They were being escorted by some men that was sorta consoling them but at the same time helping keep everyone away to give them space.

The closer they got the more Chris became weak to the knees. She walked up to her casket and she looked like she was sleeping. She was so beautiful but it hurted her so bad knowing she was never coming back. That this was her last goodbye. Her last time physically seeing her beautiful face.

Jayla leaned down and kissed her forehead, Daddy loves you so much babygirl." She held back her tears.

Chris then leaned down and did the same, "Mommy and Marlee always together, Mommy and Marlee our love is forever, Mommy and Marlee we are best friends, Mommy and Marlee together until the end." She sang the little song Marlee wrote for her on a mother's day project at school. "I'll always love you baby girl. You'll always be Momma's little princess.." She slightly caressed her hair. She kissed her cheek again. Then they removed the cloth with her full name on it.
"Marlee Symone Akrawi," Her middle name came from Chris's deceased childhood friend.

They closed her casket...and handed the cloth to Chris.

The day was now over and Chris enetered her apartment. It felt empty. It felt dark and lonely. The happy little 3 year old running through the house didn't run through the door yelling. She didn't come in and immediately run to Chris holding her saying "Mommy I love you."

Chris walked down the hallway and stopped by her door. She opemed it and life just hit her. The bed was empty. Her toys and clothes weren't sprawled over the floor. In fact the little Hello Kitty bear she has was sitting up straight on the floor. Chris couldn't take it and just broke down. She closed the door, grabbed the bear and laid on the bed and cried. She cried and cried until she couldn't anymore.

She was officially alone. Of course she had Sammy, Jayla, Niecy and some other friends but her daughter was above all of them. If she didn't have her, she doesn't have anyone. 

She couldn't take the pain it was killing her. She got up kissing the bear and stripping herself of valuables. Her phone, watch, earrings.

Until she was down to her button up, black slacks and shoes. Poofy red eyes and bags underneath them. Hair let down looking rough as ever. She didn't care anymore.  She knows she'll never forgive herself for letting Markie take away her joy and happiness. Her life basically. So what's a better way to keep her promise she made to Marlee?