Once In A Lifetime - Niall Horan [njh] COMPLETED

11. Loving Means Letting Go

NIALLS POV

"Whatta fuckin' sight fer sore eyes," I thought to myself as I felt my body blush. Sofia was a moaning mess and I was the lucky fuck who got to have her.

Never in my life have I ever felt this way about someone. Sofia is bringing out a side of me that I never knew I had, but I'm sure as hell ready to use it tonight. Even though I've never had a girl before, I feel like I know exactly what I'm doing, thank god. I'm going to make her feel beautiful even if its the last thing I do on this earth.

I scooped Sofia into my arms and carried her bridal style into the bedroom. I carefully placed her in the bed and moved the covers over her body. We can't rush tonight, I don't want her to regret ever giving me a chance. Tonight has to go perfectly for my beautiful girl, I can't even believe that I get to call her mine.

I pulled off my jeans and grabbed the pair of sweatpants I had thrown down in between the nightstand and my bed, from last night. After pulling them on, I decided to heat things up a bit and take off my shirt as well. I climbed into the bed next to Sofia, and she moaned when our skin came in contact. Pulling the covers up over us, I shifted my body so I was on my side, facing her. She was laid flat on her back and had both of her arms up, each hand in a loosely-curled ball on either side of her head.

I stared at her, taking in all of her beauty. Her deliciously brown hair, beautiful eyes, and even more beautiful facial expression. She looked like she was riding out her high, even though one had not been provided yet. The sight made my stomach do tumbles, and as I was savoring all that was her, she opened her eyes and looked at me.

"Ni," she whispered to me.

"Yes, my lovely girl?" I mindlessly doted on her.

"Are you tired?" She asked me, to my surprise.

"No, darlin'. Why?" I responded, having some sort of idea where she was about to go with this conversation.

"No reason," she was obviously lying. I've spent so much time admiring her that I forgot the reason why we got into this bed.

Channeling my more confident alter-ego, I restored the heat of our night by pulling her up onto her side to face me. Answering my sudden movements, she moved her arm to support her head as she laid on her side, directly facing me. I spared no time in grabbing her leg with my warm hand, pulling it over my body so that it was firmly wrapped around me.

I extended my arm back around her and quickly pulled the rest of her body flush against mine. I noted how her pupils dilated as she realized I was now shirtless.

Soft moans escaped from her lips as I kissed all over her neck and cheek. She nuzzled her head into my chest, and I felt my heart begin to race out of control. I proceeded to grind myself into her sweet spot, causing her to grip onto me as if her life depended on it.

"Niall, oh my god," she gasped, now digging her head into my chest and grasping my arms with a firm, but delicate grip.

I let out a throaty groan and continued to grind myself into her wet center; pressing my hand against the small of her back to create more pressure between us. She was dripping more and more as we went on. I rubbed my hand up and down her thigh, wanting to feel every single inch of her skin. She pulled herself close to me, using my biceps as her anchor, and tossed her head back at the contact of my hand being so dangerously close to her center.

"Niall, I need you to take me right this second," she cried out, making my heart flutter at the sound of her needing me so desperately. I cant believe that she is the one that wants to jump into this so fast. As much as I want to give in to her every last desire, I don't want our eagerness to ruin anything for us.

"Darlin', are ya sure you wanta do this?" I hesitantly asked.

"Ni, I want you so badly, are you trying to make me beg or something?" She blurted out.

"No, baby. I just really don't want t' rush int'a anything tonight, because I don't want..." I trailed off, not wanting to finish my thought.

I felt her body become tense at the suspension that I just created. She composed herself and, still tangled into me, perched herself so she could see my face. I could feel her hands unconsciously tightening around my biceps as she stared at me intently.

"You don't want what, Niall?" She asked softly.

"I," I tried to speak, but once I caught sight of her worried face, my heart was sent into a frenzy.

She raised her eyebrows at me, seeming more nervous with her runaway thoughts by the second.

"I thought you liked me," her mouth sounded dry and she looked like she was going to cry.

I mentally scolded myself. Why do I get so goddamned tongue-tied with girls?! Spit it the fuck out before you loose her forever! I took a deep breath before I spoke to her.

"Okay, don't think I'm stupid fer saying this, but..." I looked at her, and she looked back at me with all of her attention. "I just don't want t' wake up tomorrow, an' you regrettin' you'd been with me. What if there's no 'fire' when we wake up, an' this is only a one-night thing? What if-"

Sofia interrupted my "what-if's" session by saying, "Niall, I would never, EVER dream of waking up and not wanting you. Do you know how many days and nights I've had my heart ache because I love you so much, but you weren't there? The only thing I've ever had, and ever accepted, was the sound of your voice being there for me to play over and over until I felt no more pain and sadness. You've always been there for me and you didn't even know it. Now that I finally have you, why would I ever let you go?" She poured her heart out to me, and I felt like crying at the brutal honesty. She's loved me and suffered over me for way longer than I have even been foolish enough to selfishly worry over her. The only reason I wasn't giving into her desires because I was subconsciously putting my wants first. If I truly 'loved' Sofia, I would give into whatever she wanted, because if you love someone, you become selfless. I felt ashamed.

"Sofia, I'm so sorry," I said before kissing her, placing each of my hands on her cheeks.

"I've been so selfish," I said, looking down. I couldn't look her in the eyes. "I was so busy givin' into my own wants an' fears that I completely ignored yer desires. Tonight was about makin' YOU feel beautiful, but instead, I've just made ya feel horrible," I scolded myself and she grabbed my face with her soft hands.

"Nialler," she said, pulling at my heart strings with that word.

"We're both trying to figure this out at the same time, and we're both new to this. We just have to help each other along the way, sometimes. There's going to be ups and downs but we will help each other make it the best that it can be." She looked at me endearingly.

Oh god, how I was falling in love with her more and more by the second.

"Sofia," I choked out, trying to compose myself despite all the emotions I was feeling right now. "I want nothin' more than t' figure this out, an' make it work, with you." I pecked her nose lightly, and she responded with a light giggle.

"We really have a connection, Ni. I could feel it since the moment we met," she admitted to me.

Her words put me in a better mood, and I replied, taking her by surprise by putting on a silly act. "You felt it too?! Praise Jesus!" I exclaimed as I leaned in to her, peppering her face with kisses as I tickled her lightly, causing her to giggle uncontrollably as I swarmed her with my love.

"I love you so much, my Nialler." She said, meaning every single word. I could feel my cheeks become flush with redness. Every time she said "Nialler", she sent my heart fluttering out of control.

"I love ya more, my princess," I replied, leaning in to kiss her. This time, I stayed on her lips, deepening the kiss. I plunged my tongue into her mouth, and without hesitation, she let me take control. A heatwave radiated over my whole body, giving me goosebumps, and my stomach burned with desire. If she really wants to do this tonight, I'm going to give her everything I have.

A/N I'm writing chapter 12 right now! I think I might upload it tonight if i finish it in a decent amount of time ;) :O xx