Trigger

15

Julianne Victoria

Hirap at pilit kong binuksan ang aking mga mata kahit gusto ko pang matulog. Sinalubong naman ako ng dilim at nadama na ang lamig ng aircon kaya nagtataka kong nilingon ang direksyon ng banyo sa kwarto. I religiously leave the bathroom lights on and its door a bit open before sleeping, and I must have forgotten to turn it on last night.

"Ughh... what time is it..." I mumbled as my hand blindly searched for my phone. I then realized how numb my left cheek was, indicating that I did not move the entire time that I was sleeping. Sobrang pagod siguro ako kagabi after the launching that was why...TEKA, SANDALI.

HOLY FREAKING SHIT!

Natutop ko ang sariling bibig nang maalala ang mga nangyari kagabi.

Hot hands. Light kisses. Heavy kisses. Heated caresses. Passionate kisses. Lip biting. Then the monster took over—I gasped at the last memory.

"Oh my god, no!" Hindi ko napigilang mapasigaw sabay bangon mula sa pagkakahiga.

"Mierda?! Julianne, are you okay??"

I was already in a state of shock, pero mas lalo lumala nang nagbukas ang ilaw sa bedside table at narinig ko ang boses niya. Mabilis akong napalingon kay Alexander.

And another shit, bakit ganito?? Halos makalimutan ko na ang present predicament ko nang makita ang kabuuan niya. There was worry in his eyes, but the thing that took my wits was his massive naked chest that were heaving real hard, plus his biceps were clenched, as if ready to pounce. And were those tattoos real? His body had colorful ones all over, complimented by a full sleeve pair of arms.

Lintian, ano ini? Is he really topless right now??? Kumurap ako ng ilang beses, I was utterly confused, and god knows what else.

"W-what...what are you doing inside my room?" I pulled my bed duvets and wrapped it around my body. Mabilis din akong tumalikod sa kanya. "Pwede bang magsuot ka ng damit?" Mas may diin na ang tono ko, and I heard him cursed as he moved away from my bed.

Ramdam ko ang mabilis na pagtibok sa dibdib ko at parang sasabog ang utak ko ngayon sa pinaghalo-halong mga impormasyon at emosyon na nagsipasukan. Nakakatuliro lang dahil nangingibabaw na roon ang halikan namin ni Alexander.

It actually felt good and Marj was right. Kissing is euphoric,and something else. Did it all really happen to me?

"Lo siento Julianne, I did not think that you'll wake up sooner. I'm not used to sleeping with my clothes on but do not worry, I slept on the floor. If it makes you feel better, your mom was the one who changed your clothes. Wala akong ginawa na pwedeng makasama 'sayo. " His tone was apologetic. "Please turn around, I'm already decent."

My forehead creased. I supposed, he already knew of things.

And he also met my parents? Nilingon ko na siya and at the same time tried to decipher the extent of his knowledge about what happened to me. He won't be here if mom and dad did not permit it, though I still don't know how.

And he... stayed? Mas lalong gumulo ang lahat, sa totoo lang. I frowned at him.

"Bakit nandito ka pa?" I tried to sound impassive. Nakita ko ang pag-awang ng bibig niya, as if he did not expect what I just asked. Agad rin namang nawala ang pagkagulat niya at tumawa pa nga as if to mock me.

"You thought I'd leave you after knowing what happened to you." Hindi iyon tanong kundi kumpirmasyon. "Sabagay, pero ganoon ba ako kawalang kwentang tao para sa'yo? No, don't answer. I'd say yes, myself. I'd agree." He was as if debating with himself na mas nagpalukot ng noo ko. "Well, know this. I.AM.NOT.LEAVING.YOU." He stated with finality, making me gape at him.