Love is Creativity (Harry Styles & Selena Gomez)

Chapter 25

Selena POV

"Your father would have been disgusted once he have saw that if he haven't left you"

I've been thinking so hard about happened last night.
After what Yaser said, I been have thinking,
if I knew my father to this day, would he have been disgusted with me for being pregnant?
Would I still be in Wolverhampton,
living there with him?
Would my mother still be alive?
All these questions flew around inside my head,
which I couldn't just focus straight!
I slammed my pen on the counter,
crushing some files next to me with my elbow as I leaned forward,
rubbing my temples.
Why is my life so complicated?!
Why couldn't my life be like Liam's,
or Zayn's, or like anybody else?!
Sometimes I wish I could snap my fingers to make all the problems go away,
I can't take them.
"Hey" a voice said behind me,
I turned around as I see a pair of blue eyes staring at me as I sighed and went back to rubbing my temples,
"Hi Lou"
"I uh, heard what happened to you last night, that was very low" he said,
walking over to me as he leans against the counter next to me.
"Zayn told you, didn't he?"
"Well most of it, he didn't tell me what Yaser said to make you run off"
"It's very personal, I'm sorry....." I told him, holding back my tears.
I'm not crying for that deadbeat.
I haven't cried in 21 years for him,
why should I start now?
"I understand" he said, nodding as he looks at the ground,
he then slowly looks up as he see my baby bump which is getting bigger actually,
I'm actually showing now.
"Getting bigger, I see?"
"Huh?"
"The baby, the baby's getting bigger now"
"Oh, yeah I know.
I find out the gender next week"
"Oh that's great" he smirks as he nods nervously.
I sighed as I looked at Louis and I shook my head,
"Louis"
He looks at me as I sighed once more,
looking straight at him before I start talking,
"You don't have to be shy,
this is your child I'm carrying.
He or she is going to arrive before you and I know it,
we're going to have to be ready"
"I'm not that baby's father,
I don't deserve to be after what I've done to you.
I don't want him to have a monster as a father" he said, running his fingers through his hair.
"Don't say that, alright?!
You are too the father of our child, I'm not going to let you bail out on me because I'm not going to raise this kid on my own....."
"Selena"
"I'm not going to suffer while you sit back and relax while I bust my ass working for a baby that I wasn't planning on having....."
"Selena"
"And I'm not going have a baby where he or she won't know who is his or her father, because I'm not going to let this baby go through the same thing I did for 21 years!"
"SELENA!" Louis cuts me off, placing his hands on my shoulder as he shook my gently but enough to snap me out of my mood swings.
I look up at him as he looks down at me and sighs sadly,
"I don't have a father either.......
well not anymore actually"
I looked at him as I slightly furrowed my eyebrows,
right when I was about to say something,
I had an odd feeling in my stomach that really couldn't explain.
It were if something were moving inside of me,
or someone........
Then it hit me, my eyes widen as I gasped of surprise and a hint if excitement,
OH MY GOSH!
"Oh my gosh" I said to myself as I placed my hands over my pregnant belly,
feeling the movement of my child inside of me.
"What is it?" he asked as he furrowed his eyebrows in concern and confusion.
"The baby, the baby's moving" I told him as he looks at my stomach,
letting out a slight smile as I kept smiling,
rubbing my stomach every time he or she moved.
"The baby is m-moving" I said, as my voice cracked,
letting out a sniff as I knew I was about to cry.
But this time, my tears were tears of joy.
Louis looks at me as I wiped a few tears away from my eyes,
smiling as I sniffed.
I don't really know why the baby is moving this really because it's really not suppose to now,
but the happiness is roaming inside of me, is too much to feel worried.
"M-May I?" Louis stutters nervously as he mentions my pregnant belly.
I look up at him a I smirked and nodded,
"Yeah"
Louis slightly smiles as he slowly moves his hands,
softly laying them over my stomach.
He waited to feel movement as he stood there,
his hands on my belly,
which kind of made me feel like I had a weird feeling behind me,
but I just shrugged it off like if it was nothing.
"I.....I can't feel anything" Louis said with full disappointment.
"Well then......talk. Talk to the baby"
Louis just sighed as he look down on my belly as he licks his lips,
opening his mouth to say something.
"Hi baby....its your daddy....." he starts off.
I watch him as he tries communicating to the little one.
"If you can hear me.....then-" Louis gets cuts off as I felt another movement,
like a soft kick.
"He....he moved" Louis smiles at me as I smiled back,
still wiping my leftover tears that I had in my eyes.
He looks at me as I look at him,
"Selena.....I'm sorry....."
"Louis-"
"No, hear me out.
I'm sorry I did this to you,
I'm sorry I caused disappointment between you and Liam,
I'm sorry I stupid enough to think that the money I was getting paid with, would 'supposedly' be worth it!!!"
"Supposedly?
Are you telling me that someone paid you to rape me?"
Louis looks at the ground as I just shook my head at him,
I just wanted to slap not only him, but whoever hired him for this.
"Who paid you?"
"Selena-"
"WHO PAID YOU?!" I shouted as he runs his fingers through his hair and shakes his head.
"YOUR DISGUSTING!!!!" we heard a voice yell out as Louis and I look at each other then run over to see who was yelling.
Harry comes in,
as he's pulling back Zayn in full anger as he tries getting out of Harry's grip.
"What's going on?!"
"I SWEAR THAT FUCKING SLUT WILL PAY FOR THIS!
SHE'LL FUCKING PAY!!!"
"Zayn, calm down!" shouted Harry,
pushing him to the counter as Louis quickly walks over to Zayn.
"Zayn, it's okay" I told him as he was breathing heavy,
leaning against the counter as Louis was rubbing his shoulders to calm him down some more.
Zayn looks over at Louis as he just sighs,
turning around to face Louis before laying his hands on his shoulders with his head down to the ground.
He looks up at Louis,
giving him eyes of sympathy and a hint of anger as he shook his head.
"If you needed money.....all you had to do was ask"
Louis's eyes widen as he just shakes his head,
biting his bottom lip with regret and anger.
"I can't take advantage of my family like that"
"We're brothers Lou!
Your mother is like my second mother!
WHY COULDN'T YOU HAVE TOLD TO ME?!
WHY GET PAID BY HER?!" Zayn growled, clenching his teeth together as Louis bites his bottom lip harder,
I can even see his tears falling from his eyes,
Louis wants to breakdown but he knows he has to be strong.
Louis turns around as he looks at me,
wiping his tears roughly,
with his sleeves.
"Perrie"
"Huh?"
"It's was Perrie.
Perrie Edwards paid me to rape you"