He is my Hope. [BTS Jhope] ✔

Chapter 5

"Kim Namjoon!" I yelled, running to catch up with him. He was trying to leave the school before I could get to him. "Stop avoiding me!"

He ran into the boys restroom, still pretending he didn't hear me calling him. UGH this frustrating guy! You are causing me all sorts of problems! Yun Hee and Hyo caught up to me after running behind.

"Did he seriously go into the boys restroom? How childish!" Hyo Rin panted.

"He's not getting out of this!" Yun Hee pushed the door open and disappeared into the restroom after Namjoon. She came out a few minutes later, dragging an angry Namjoon by the arm. "Su Jin needs to talk to you, stop being a chicken shit." She shoved him towards me and walked off with Hyo Rin.

"What the hell?" Namjoon threw his arm away from me with his eyes squinting. His voice lowered from his aggressive annoyance.

I wasn't sure how to start. My mouth was dry and I felt like I couldn't form the proper words. He spoke before I could. "What is it Su Jin? Why would you have your friend attack me in the bathroom?" He averted his gaze, looking down the hallway instead of at me.

Finally my brain kicked on and I could form a sentence. "She didn't attack you! You have been avoiding me and we should talk."

He looked back at me and nodded, telling me to continue with what I needed to say.

I took a deep breath, gathering my courage to say everything I needed to. "I'm sorry if I hurt you, okay? I didn't know Hoseok was going to do that and I wanted to take some time to think about what you said. Why would you go an get a new girlfriend not even a week after confessing to me? You're just trying to make me jealous and it's irritating!"

Namjoon raises one eye brow as an evil smirk slithers across his face. He advanced the couple steps it took to back me against the wall. Putting one hand on the wall behind me, Namjoon closes in towards my face licking his upper lip slightly before speaking."So you are jealous?"

My cheeks flushed and I stuttered back at him. "N-no i'm not! I-i'm just confused about why you did that!" I tried to push him away but he stood firm.

"Maybe I should be the one confused. You're acting interested in Hoseok but you're jealous of me dating?" He inched closer as he spoke, I could feel his breath against my lips. "Should we see who you really like?"

"This isn't funny!" I glowered at the mischievous boy in front of me. Stop trying to confuse me Kim Namjoon. "I just want you to stop avoiding me so things can go back to normal!"

His eyes narrowed on me before he smiled at me. "I just want you to stop avoiding me and notice me." He closed the distance between us, lifting my face up so that he could gently place his lips on mine.

I froze, unable to move my own body. I felt heat rising to my cheeks, they felt like they were on fire. WHY, oh no, this doesn't feel right but it doesn't feel wrong either. My eyes were tightly shut and Hoseoks smiling face came to mind. Why am I so conflicted?

Namjoon pulled away and kissed my forehead before quietly leaving me stunned in the hallway.

Why did he have to go and do that? Now things definitely won't be simple.

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"HE WHAT?!" Hyo Rin screamed, her eyes wide and mouth hanging open. I invited Hyo Rin and Yun Hee to sleep over after the incident with Namjoon. Our parents were fine with it as long as we weren't late to school, we all had to go to the same place after all.

I tried to hush Hyo Rin but Yun Hee started screaming next. "WHAT THIS ISN'T FAIR! I want Taehyung or Yoongi to kiss me! You're so cruel Su Jin!" She threw herself against my bed and grabbed a pillow to cuddle with, moping.

"Please tell me you smacked him?" Hyo Rin pressed.

"No I didn't smack him, I already told you I couldn't move!" I shoved a pillow at Hyo Rin's face, trying to shut her up and escape her judgmental looks.

I wouldn't have asked them over if I knew they were going to be so unhelpful and whiney! Gah what friends.

"I asked you guys over because I need help! You're doing a horrible job..." I muttered.

Hyo Rin was lost in thought before letting out a heavy sigh. "Okay, I'm sorry alright? I was just shocked. I expect this from Yun Hee, not you."

Yun Hee peeked up at the mention of her name. "I expect this of me too, I'm so disappointed in myself." Hyo Rin reached over and smacked her on the back of the head.

"I'm just conflicted. Namjoon has been my friend since childhood, I know he's a great guy and he is cute... It's just when I think of Hobi I feel so warm and happy." I gushed my feelings to my friends, they nodded along, understanding my mixed emotions.

Namjoon and I had been friends since we were seven years old. He had lived next door to me until just a few years ago, we did everything together. He stood up for me when I was bullied by other kids and walked home from school with me everyday. We had sleepovers and our parents joked about how we were inseparable. He was always easy to talk to, I could tell him anything. The person acting this way now, seemed so different from my childhood friend.

"Just date both of them, then you'll find out who you really like." Yun Hee shrugged before laying back down on the bed.

"Absolutely do NOT date both of them! Are you easy?" Hyo Rin was scoffing at Yun Hee's suggestion.

"EASY? There's nothing wrong with liking two guys. How old are you Hyo Rin? What year is it?" The girls started to argue amongst themselves, forcing me to give up seeking their advice.

I buried my head under a pillow, trying to tune them out. I didn't know how I felt, I wanted someone to tell me what I should do. I had gone all my life without any boy trouble and now i'm caught between two seemingly great guys. How am I supposed to make a decision? Why does this suck so much?

I was finally able to drift off to sleep when I heard Hyo Rin and Yun Hees soft snoring, even though I was dreading the next day. I wasn't ready to face Namjoon and Hoseok.

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A/N: I'M SO SORRY FOR ALL THE CHEESE! AHHH!! D: Haha