He is my Hope. [BTS Jhope] ✔

Chapter 11

I spent the rest of my 'winter break' locked in my room. The curtains stayed closed and I hadn't seen the sun for a few days. My parents didn't try to force me out like they normally would have, they knew good and well they were the sole cause for my sudden distraught state. I wallowed in self pity as I refused to eat in protest against my parents and watched sad movies. My father tried to tell me I was being dramatic, but anyone would react the same at such news.

When the day for us to return to school came around, I was finally forced to leave my dark cave and re-join the land of the living. I hadn't spoken to anyone since Christmas, I shut my phone off because I didn't want to break down and tell my friends just yet. However I really just didn't want to have to see his name on my phone. I was sad enough as it stood. I had to turn my phone back on since it was time to return to school, my phone instantly blew up with texts.

Hobi: Su Jin, I miss you already. Let's hangout!

Hobi: Helllloooo? :D

Hobi: Hey! Are you there? Ignoring me? :'( Hehe

Hobi: Su Jin?

Hobi: Are you mad at me? Are you okay?

Hobi: I'm sorry for whatever I did...

Yun Hee: TAEHYUNG IS SO CUTE

Yun Hee: Jimin keeps texting me though

Yun Hee: Hey, help me with my love life!

Yun Hee: SU JIN!?

Yun Hee: What the hell?

Hyo Rin: Are you okay? I heard you're ignoring Yun Hee.

Hyo Rin: Hello?

Namjoon: Hoseok keeps moping. Take off those headphones I bought you and answer someone.

Namjoon: YAH! Text me back! You're worrying everyone!

TaeTae: This is Taehyung, Yun Hee asked me to text you. Are you alright?

TaeTae: Are you mad at Yun Hee?

Jimin: On my way to Yun Hee's!! Guess you're not gonna stop me this time! :D

Jin: Su Jin, please answer someone.

I trudged to the bathroom to brush my hair, not really putting any effort into my appearance at all. I knew I would have to tell them, especially after ignoring all of them for days. I just wasn't sure how to do it. I walked as slow as I could to school, trying to think of a way to talk to my friends without having a breakdown in the middle of school. Soon enough, I was facing my worst nightmare as all my friends were in a group waiting for me in front of the school. Naturally, Yun Hee stormed up to me full of rage.

"What the hell Su Jin!? You shut your phone off for DAYS and just show up here looking all sorry for yourself? We've been worried sick! Your parents wouldn't let us try to visit you either! Explain yourself!" She stood with a hand on her hip, nostrils flaring from anger as she waited on a response. Always the same stance, Yun Hee.

Everyone else slowly approached us, making sure to stay out of Yun Hee's death glare range. I felt like my throat was so dry it would hurt to speak. My legs were shaking and I was trying my best to fight back the tears threatening to spill at any moment.

"Well... I-I have some news..." I started, pausing when they all leaned in a little closer to make sure they heard whatever I had to say. I felt a jolt of pain in my stomach when my eyes met Hoseoks. He looked hurt seeing me. He is probably really upset with me and he will hate me after I tell him. I don't want to tell him. Do I have to tell them? Can't I just finish out my time here and leave without a sad goodbye or tears? I was lost in my own debate when Yun Hee huffed and crossed her arms over her chest.