the girl he must defeat (Edmund Pevensie fanfic)

Metamorphosis

I did not knew personally the Just King, at least if I did I do not remember very well, but something in his eyes told me he was not lying to me, even though my heart told me to follow the Queen, my head was screaming  "NO, listen to him" repeatedly as if warning me about something, or maybe it was because of his good looks. But that can't be, I am not here to love or to have feelings, I'm here to get my Queen what she wants, at least that's what my hearts been telling me. Oh  c'mon are you that stupid to listen to your heart?  I just simply can't ignore what my head's been saying.

 I may not remember everything for my head's a bit out of control as you may imagine, but my Queen told me, when I woke up this yestermorning  with a lack of memorie, that I was there to get her her throne that had been stolen off her by the royal Pevensie family, though after meeting Edmund, if I'm not mistaken,  I can't quite believe her anymore, and everytime I think about what he said ,about Jadis being the bad one ,my chest starts aching, like little daggers were piercing my flesh repeatedly, I knew the aching was Jadis doing, maybe it was her way to tell me my head was wrong. But then why would she provoke me pain if she could simply tell it to my face? That's not a good person's doing, or is it?

My head and heart were tricking me and I couldn't decide which one to follow. Follow your head moron! And there it was again, my head didn't left me alone and my heart started aching everytime I was thinking about taking Pevensie's side. 

Here I was with my body full of dark spots, crossed legged on the cold room, trying to focus on what she told me to do "Focus on your heart and empty your mind, to control it you need to feel it, you need to become it" but control what?  Though I'm not sure, I do have an idea, maybe she was talking about what I did to the King, If I can still call him that, when I accidentally threw him on the ground with just an abrupt hand movement. Maybe that's what I'm here to do, maybe that's how I'll help the Queen, by using this weird technic, I don't quite know what it is worth for though, maybe I'll defeat the enemies by throwing them  away with such force they'll die. But wait, that's not what you want to do. I don't know but I fell a bit distressed when I'm facing violence, when Jadis yells with some black dwarfs, whether if they did something wrong or simply because she's in a bad mood, which happens a lot of times,  it only perturbed me in some way, and thinking about fighting along side her and killing people was making me feel even more perturbed.

And what's the reason for this dark mist and this dark spots on my skin, and my darkened eyes? They look darker than Jadis' and King Edmund's, I need answers and I need them right now, if Jadis is a good person indeed, like she says she is, then she has to tell me why am I actually here for and tell me detailedly why the fuck this is happening to me.

I got up carefully not to be followed by the mist again, but that shit didn't let me alone and so it followed me anyways. 

"Why is this dark spots on my body, and what's this weird looking mist?" I asked Jadis as I eyed her in the very end of the main hallway 

She slowly turned around to look at me "That's what you are, that mist is part of you, and soon you'll finally complete the metamorphosis and become the most powerful being in all this world, you'll just have to obey me and do as I say." she smirked 

"what do you mean by metamorphosis?"

She sighed "Well you're going through a transformation whom will make you get more capacities , one of which is being able to kill whoever gets in your way" 

"What if I don't want to kill them?" I frowned

She chuckled sarcastically "How would you say such thing, you won't be killing those people just by mere amusement, it will bring peace to our new and better kingdom, Vanessa if I was to be the one who choose what to do I would never bring war into our peaceful kingdom, but justice has to be done and if it is not the easy way it will have to be the harder way" 

Something deep inside didn't let me believe her, like I believed Ed, but then the aching started again and I tried to forget about it by continuing my questions 

"And what will you do to the royal Pevensie family once you get your kingdom back?"

"Ah if they were not already been killed in the war then I will be the one to kill them, one by one, starting with the eldest and ending in the stubborn one whom they call the Just" Edmund of course "So I can make him watch his siblings being painfully killed" she smirked with the thought of it 

"Won't that be a violent attitude of you? I mean you just said you wanted to bring peace into the kingdom again, and I don't think killing them would be a peaceful gesture of you" I smirked too 

She glanzed at me in a terrifying  way before turning her backs to me "They are hurting my people so they will have to pay for it. And don't even think about taking their side or it will be much worse for you" she said before leaving me by myself 

She can't be a good person. You can't seriously think she is a good person by what she just told you, besides she even threatened you. My head said bothering me once again. But this time she had a very strong point, I knew that if I helped her there would be a lot of deaths and pain, and maybe if I helped the other side there wouldn't be as much pain. Or maybe I could stand still and do nothing. That was a good idea, but not the right one.

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Once again I woke up with my brain trying to burst out of my head. This past three days my skin changed color from pale white to dark grey, and my eyes were now completely black, I looked scary, I even scared myself when I looked in the little mirror on the ice made bathroom, and my hair was a tangled mess, it was fuzzy and dull. The mist has grown bigger aswell, it covered , not only the castle, but also the area sorrounding it. It scared me to know this was all my doing, that I had such big power on my hands and that, at any time, I could kill anyone by moving my arm or simply breath and freeze somebody, because Jadis teached me how to do it, I didn't wanted to practice it on the little dwarf, but she  made me do it ,I was so scared that I did it however...I didn't hated and that was when I knew I was becoming a bad person, so that was when I made an important decision and there was no going back now.