A Condemned Lust [Lionel Messi]

Chapter ten

How do you kill a feeling?
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Laura's POV

"I can't forgive him Clara. This is too much for me to process." I shook my head as the tears made their way down my cheeks. "He lied to me, he doubted me, he used me."

"Babygirl, he didn't use you. He loves you." She said, tucking a strand of hair behind my ear.

"How do you know?" I sniffed.

"Laura, he was begging you to forgive him. Should i remind you who he is?"

She had a point. He begged me. HE, Lionel, begged me.

"But, he hurt me.. how can you do this to someone you love?"

"Sweetie, you can't keep thinking about the past. He promised you he'll make it up to you. Give him a chance. He's everything you've ever wanted. Are you willing to let him go now?"

I closed my eyes remembering how i first fell in love with him. Everyone thought it was a crush, that it'll fade away; however, i haven't known anything of that intensity before in my life. I started loving him through a screen, not knowing anything more about him than what is shown. Slowly, i started analyzing his behavior from every match, every interview, every thing said about him. Thus, i built an image of him, of his personality that i thought was close to reality. And then i had the chance to meet him, to know him up close, to live with him; which made me realize that my image wasn't far from reality, and that my feelings are everything but a simple crush.

Some tell you that being with the one you love gives you all the butterflies, the anxiousness, the hurricane that is love.

While others tell you that being with the one you love results in an inner peace never felt before.

In my case, he was both. He was both the calm and the storm inside of me. He was both the confusion and the peace of my heart.

So day by day i realized that my feelings were of an unstoppable power. And that the more i'll get to know him, the more i'll love him.

The only way there was to kill that feeling, was to kill myself in the same process.

"You've never loved anyone the way you love him Laura. And now he's here, waiting for you." She wiped the tears that were streaming down my face. "Go to him babygirl, or you'll regret it."

I simply nodded. My thoughts were all over the place and my heart was pumping as fast as humanly possible. I didn't think about anything else beside getting to him right now.

I needed him to feel whole again.
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I rang the doorbell for the first time with a fixed idea in mind. Being with him. This doorbell used to symbolize the sound of my agony starting. But this time, it was different. It was the first time in which i'm ready to deliver myself to him, knowing that he feels the same way.

As soon as he opened the door, i noticed his eyes were slightly red and tired.

"Do. Not. Turn. Off. Your. Phone. Again. I didn't sleep all night Laura! My thoughts were driving me crazy and you were unreachable!"

Am i dreaming? He didn't sleep because he was worried about me?

"I'm sorry.." i didn't know what else to say.

"Laura, please, just give me a chance. I don't understand what's happening to me anymore, you're everywhere."

Is this real? Clara was right. He did love me.

"I forgive you." I replied fast, not wanting to waste any more time.

"You do?" He gasped.

I took a deep breath before repeating the sentence, while stressing on every word, "i forgive you Leo."

"Come here." He said taking me in for an embrace. "I'll make it up to you. Everything."

We stood at the door hugging for what felt like hours. In that moment, i realized that we never hugged. Out of everything that happened, we never opened up that much for one another. Our hearts were for the first time aligned, side to side and beating as one. Both our breaths were synchronized; my lungs finally being able to breathe the oxygen i lusted for.

"Don't leave me, please." I let out, feeling the whole weight of the world deteriorate from my chest.

"I'm never letting you go again." He replied, stroking my hair.

He was the air i wanted to breathe for as long as i lived. His heart was the only thing i wanted mine to beat for, and his arms were the only cage i'd beg to live in.

"Angel?" He paused, lifting my face so i could stare at him.

'Angel' .. did you ever fall in love with a word?

"You're still with him.." he sighed, kissing my forehead, "and he's my friend." He continued, the pain resonating from his voice.

I didn't realize i was crying, until he wiped my tears with his thumbs.

"It's okay.. we'll figure it out, together." He whispered to me, trying to calm me.

I buried my face in his chest, thinking of what i've got myself into. I was sinking between heaven and disaster. Neymar never did me wrong, why did i do this to him? I can't hurt him. I don't want to hurt him. But i'm afraid i don't have any other choice.

I should've known better. No man has the power to make me forget Leo. He was my better half. My soul's eternal mate.

There wasn't any way to kill the feeling. A love that deep and real cannot be killed.

Suddenly, i felt his arms tighten even more around me as the whole world stopped.

"Oh well, next time when you'd like to get more intimate, just remember to close the door." I heard Neymar's voice call out.

I felt the blood get drained from my veins to the ground. What have i done?
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I'm sorry this chapter is shorter than all the others but we're getting closer to the big reveal, so hang in there xo
-Y.A