Blurry's the one I'm not

he wants to dissapear

// how can someone be this cute ??? can u beliv ???? // (this pic ^^^^)

Tyler woke up from the bright sun shining in his eyes and someone blasting music out of the speakers. he felt something around his waist and almost started panicking, but he remembered last night. him and josh were talking for a long time and they fell asleep snuggling into each other.
Tyler turned around (tuuurn awaayyyy) and saw Josh snuggled up in blankets. he really was a cute napper.
"hey, Joshie, wake up. " Tyler said in a soft, quiet voice. Josh slowly opened his eyes taking in his surroundings. "w-what time is it?" Josh said in his raspy voice.
"i dunno, like 9am, maybe? why?"
"we have that interview, remember?"
they had an interview and Tyler completely forgot about it. all these things happening with Blurry has distracted him a lot.
"oh, y-yeah, right. i remember. " Tyler frowns at the thought of dressing up and trying to act happy for an interview and not being able to just lay in bed and think about stuff. though this will distract him from Blurry, so it's not that bad. or is it?
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"Jooosh, do i wear this or this?!" Tyler yells and comes out of their small warderobe with a yellow hoodie (iconic) and a light blue button up. he waits a little but Josh doesn't answer.
"Joshuaa, i need your fashion sense here!" Tyler yells again and goes looking for his friend. he goes through the bus and hears quiet sobs from the bathroom.
"Josh..? is that you? can i come in?" Tyler quietly said so no one else could hear him. sobs continued and Tyler slowly pushed the door open to see Josh, curled up on the floor, tears streaming down his cheeks. Tyler quickly closed the door behind him, sat down and took Josh's hand in his. Josh flinched and hid his face. "d-don't t-touch me. go away. i don't want you to see me like this. leave me alone" Josh stuttered, still hiding his tear stained face in his hands. Tyler took a quick peek in the cabinet beneath the sink. the blade was still there. good. Josh didn't cut so that's good. "shh, Josh, it's just me. everything's okay, i'm not gonna hurt you." his soft, soothing voice calmed Josh down a little bit. he held his friend close to his chest, running fingers through Josh's hair and whispering that everything's okay and that he's safe.
"i-i haven't got any panic attacks all tour. i though i was fine. and then i went dress up a-and suddenly i couldn't breathe, and i came here t-to calm down but i s-started shaking and i couldn't take it anymore" Josh cried in Tyler's shirt. "i'm so sorry Tyler. you have bigger problems to deal with than me. i'm too insignificant."
"shut up. you know i would be dead by now if i wouldn't have you. you are the light of my life. you actually make me feel strong and confident. if it wasn't for you, i'd be frickin dead, Josh."
"that was pretty aggressive." Josh chuckled through quiet sobs.
"sorry, it's just.. i want you to know, that you're important to me, okay? also, i'll tell someone to call and cancel the interview" Tyler said in his supportive, soft voice, placing a small kiss on Josh's forehead
"o-okay. can we like, play mario kart or somethin?" a small grin appeared on Josh's face.
"sure, bud" Tyler smiled.
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they played mario kart for some time and Tyler was trying his best to concentrate on the game and not on Blurry.
"i told you - you're killing him. he had a panic attack because of you. you make him feel worthless. though you are the worthless one here."
"be right back, imma grab a redbull" Tyler quickly lied and went to the bathroom. he's looking in the mirror, he looks tired, hurt, scared. Tyler's staring at the reflection. his eyes turn bright red, pitch black paint appears on his neck, black smoke is coming out of his bitten lips. it's Blurry as his reflection.
"why are you surprised? you know i am you. we have the same thoughts but you're just trying to deny it. we both know you're worthless. you're even hurting your best friend. congratulations" Blurry says with a smirk.
"no.. i maybe am worthless but Josh needs me. i'm the only one who can calm him down and hold him while he cries. he needs me."
"yeah, whatever makes you sleep at night" Blurry grins and dissapears from the mirror leaving Tyler alone in shock. he washes his face and goes back to Josh.
Tyler walks in to see Blurry standing behind Josh, with his hands on Josh's neck.
"JOSH!" Tyler screams and runs towards him.
"huh? what?" Josh says not understanding what's going on.
Blurry has dissapeared again but there's black marks on Josh's neck.
"he.. he was here. his hands on your neck.. i.. i'm so sorry.. i can't even protect my best friend.." he collapses on the ground, holding his head in his arms.
"excatly.." is all he hears. Blurryface's judgement is all he hears now and he won't shut up.
"hey.. Ty, everything's fine. i'm okay. you don't need to protect me. i'll be fine, don't worry. he won't hurt us" Josh tries to calm him down but Tyler can't hear the pink haired boy over Blurry's screams. he wants Blurry to dissapear. he wants his depression to dissapear. he wants to dissapear

// um okay no idea wtf is this. this is so messy aaaaa. anyways, this is slowly coming to an end so prepare the tissues (not)
stay street //