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tw// suicide, self harm
Tyler and Josh were on their tour. Tyler started to see someone always being behind him, feeling someones presence. His inner demon - looking just like him, but being more violent, twisted, wanting to taste blood...
// some trigger warning for this chapter, i guess lol //
Tyler woke up the next morning, Blurry's voices still echoing in the back of his head. His head feels like exploding and his throat hurts from all the screaming last night. something was holding him down on the bed and he started to panic slightly, but relaxed when saw Josh's hand over his waist. they've been sleeping like this for atleast a week, just so Tyler could sleep peacefully. that helps a little but Blurryface is still yelling, still convincing Tyler, that he's worthless, that he needs to die. and Tyler is slowly starting to believe in Blurryface's words. what's the point to continue if all you do is cry and annoy your best friend with it. he will get tired of you if you continue being like this. you. are. so. useless. Tyler's sore eyes are filling with tears again.
so weak.
Tyler took his phone from the nightstand near the couch. 5:24 am. he took Josh's hand away from his carefully, like it was made from fragile glass. if Josh woke up, Tyler would have to act happy again and he can't take this anymore. He quietly gets out of the couch, kisses Josh on goodbye. he takes some clothes and goes to the bathroom. "were are you going, Ty? " Blurry smirks, standing behind Tyler, looking at his reflection in the mirror. "don't call me that. only Josh can do that. " Tyler snaps, looking into Blurryface's furious eyes. "Josh, Josh, Josh. everything's always about him. stop. he doesn't care." "he does. he has to.. " Tyler frowns.
He goes out of the bathroom, quietly going through the bus not to wake anyone up. Tyler walks out inhaling the cold air, he shrugs and starts walking towards a car he rented yesterday. He sat in and just drove straight, tears filling his eyes again. he was on a narrow, empty road, forest all around him. Tyler slowed down, taking his phone out. 8:37 am. Josh should be up already.
from: Jishwa :) tyler where the hell are you ???
to: Jishwa :) i'm so sorry. you will be happier without me.
from: Jishwa :) what are you talking about? tyler where are you???
from: Jishwa :) tyler answer me!
from: Jishwa :) ty, please..
to: Jishwa :) i can't take this anymore. you'll be better off without me, joshua. see you in heaven, fren. :)
from: Jishwa :) i'm coming to get you. your phone still has gps. pls dont do anything stupid. i love you , ty.
tears are rolling down Tyler's cheeks again. he doesnt want to leave Josh, but he can't make him deal with his pain either. "so, Blurrs, this is what you wanted huh?" Tyler sighs, looking to his right, seeing Blurryface in the passanger's seat next to him. "yeah. almost sad to know that you'll actually do this and leave your dear Joshie alone. almost sad. rather pathetic." Blurry laughs with a sarcastic grin on his face. "will you do the honours, Blurrs?" Tyler smiles weakly, gripping the steering wheel. "don't be a complete douche and say goodbye to your beloved Josh" Tyler sighed, taking out his phone once again. he ignored all messages Josh wrote, that he's coming to help him, that he doesnt need to do this, that he loves him.
to: Jishwa :) i'm really sorry Josh. live your life happily. you matter so much to me, but i can't take this any longer. don't forget about me but don't miss me, Joshie, please.
Blurryface grins with his animal-like teeth, his crimson eyes shining brightly, pitch black smoke coming out of him and filling the car. Tyler's lungs fill with the smoke and he feels like suffocating.
it's time to say goodbye. to the earth and your worthless life.
Suddenly all he feels is pain everywhere. the car crashed. Tyler has no idea how but it did and he flew out the front window, hitting his head afterwards. he opens his eyes and all he sees is fire, explosion, glass, blood, some car parts. blood is dripping down his temple and hands, huge glass shards cutting his skin, black smoke filling his lungs. in the distance he hears ambulance and some other cars and someone yelling his name. Josh. he was here. "no, no, NO, Tyler please, please don't leave me, nononoNO, this can't be happening, no please Ty don't give up!" Josh was rambling words, holding Tyler's blood covered hand, tears rolling down his cheeks. "hey.. thanks for coming.. i-i l-love you too, Josh.. i always have." Tyler says with his last breath smiling weakly. he tries to focus on Josh saying something but all he hears is Blurry. "well here we are, Tyler. you finally did it. you're so fucking pathetic. running from your problems like this. well, see you in hell, buddy. " Tyler's vision starts to fade and he does't feel his muscles anymore. "i love you, Tyler, so fucking much.." are the last words he hears.
"he's gone.. no.. he can't be gone.. please.." Josh is on his knees, pleading to God so Tyler would still be alive, so he would start breathing, move his hand, anything. but he won't. he's gone. he's dead. Mark drove to the road to take Josh back to the bus. Josh couldn't stop looking back at the burning car till it looked like a torch in distance.
Mark tried to convince Josh to talk to him about it but he didn't even listen. he couldn't talk to anyone about his feelings except Tyler. Josh didn't go out of his warderobe and didn't sleep all night. he was looking through their pictures and videos together. remembering all the fun times they had. he sat on the floor, wearing Tyler's hoodie, photos scattered on the ground. his red, puffy eyes filled with tears again as he came across this picture they took.
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they were so happy together. .:.were.:.
// #sorrynotsorry :) [p.s. i almost cried writing this aaaaa]. (vote n comment pls) this ain't the end tho so see ya in the next one. stay alive, stay street. <3 //
