I Need You (Kim Taehyung)

4

I sighed, wondering how it went from childhood friends to complications. I think I misplaced a part of Jimin and it caused him to be attracted to me. Cupid, what did you do?

"You okay?" His deep voice speaks behind me. I jumped, startled that someone had found me. I didn't answer because I didn't know. Am I okay? Taehyung sits besides me and crosses his legs, leaning back on his palms. "Are those Kookie's shorts?" I look down at the shorts Jungkook made me wear. I nod, not making eye contact. I can feel he wants to ask about earlier but I don't push him. I just prepare. Someone was going to see what Jimin does sooner or later. And after that, they'll find out what we used to do. And it's all my fault. 

Silence passes and my muscles tense with every passing moment. Why isn't he asking? I look over at Taehyung hesitantly and admire his beautiful face, eyes looking over the sky with such interest.  His slips slowly quirk up and Taehyung closes his eyes. "Do I look pretty?" My cheeks flush a crimson color. An unwanted squeak leaves my mouth when I try to speak, causing Taehyung to open his and look at me. His lips formed that box smile that made me fall in love as he laughs at my reaction. I inwardly groan and hide my face with my knees. Idiot. Idiot! IDIOT! "You're cute," he breathes out. My head snaps to Taehyung, who has resumed his previous position. A sigh leaves his lips. My body became warm and the red in my cheeks became more noticeable. He called me cute. My lips twitch into a smile and I can't help but let out a giggle. My hand immediately flies to my mouth, eyes widening. "I am so sorry," I apologize with such embarrassment. Taehyung giggles. "That's the first time you've ever said a full sentence to me, TaeLyn." I look away from him and look at the sky. Please let lightning hit me before I make a fool of myself. "Your cheeks are as red as a tomato." You're voice is as deep as the ocean but you don't hear me saying it. "Yeah I guess it kinda is," He laughs. My eyes widen and the warmth on my face increases. "Shut up, Taehyung." He laughs as I once again  mumble an incoherent thought that I didn't intend to.

I'm an idiot.

"A cute idiot." I let my eyes wander over to him. "I like it when you say my name like that. You sound like an angry kitten." I chuckle softly and look back at the sky. Just ask, TaeLyn. "Why haven't you asked me yet," I mumble. "I know you want to." I whisper, my voice quivering. His voice lowers in volume, becoming soft and clear. "I didn't think you'd want me to."

"Did you tell Jungkook?" I croak, my throat becoming tight. Taehyung sighs right as a wind blows and I sneeze. He removes one of the two sweater on his back and hands me his hoodie. I couldn't speak anymore so I said nothing. "How long..." I look away from the stars and over to my whole universe. "How long has he been bothering you?" I avert my eyes and sigh. "It's complicated. He was never like this."

"Why haven't you told Jungkook?" I sigh again and let my voice quiver. "He's been friends with you and Jimin since we moved in. Both of your families are close. I can't mess up a friendship with something stupid I did." 

~0~

Taehyung didn't know what to think. Why hadn't he ever noticed why the constant tag-a-longs from Jungkook's sister had become less frequent. She was always around and couldn't remember when. Maybe when TaeLyn's little trio became just a duo. 

"Did you two ever-" TaeLyn choked on air at Taehyung's question. She couldn't think of herself doing that with Jimin. There's only one person that came to her mind when it came to it. "I'm sorry," Taehyung blushes, feeling stupid for asking such a personal question. TaeLyn shook her head a she caught her breath. "S'fine." Confusion invaded Taehyung's mind while shame invaded TaeLyn's, along with negative thoughts. She knew what she was doing at the time, was wrong. But temptation and how naive she used to be, got the best of her. Jimin knew that if he used the right words and hit her weak points, TaeLyn could become what he needed to fill that void in his heart.  "So if you two didn't... Then..." Oh, Taehyung thought. Before third, it's second. 

A tear slipped past TaeLyn's eyes, sliding down the skin of her cheek. She sniffled and wiped at her eyes, hugging her body tighter as she remembered every moment she shared with Jimin. It was all a lie, she thought. He felt an arm go around her torso and pull her closer into a hug. She never thought admitting her shameful mistake would bring her into Taehyung's arms. Although flustered to be this close to someone she's loved for years, it was the last thing h=on her mind. She was embarrassed, ashamed, angry at herself for what she let Jimin. Every time she thought of those moments, she felt his hands around her, touching TaeLyn in places she shouldn't've let him near. But she was naive. TaeLyn admitted she enjoyed the way Jimin made her feel. And that's what made her sick to her stomach. She was disgusted by herself for enjoying something that meant nothing to the person that performed these actions. "It's okay." The reassuring words coming from Taehyung made her sob, silently. She couldn't help but shake her head. "I let him do it. He was hurt and I thought everything he said genuine," she sighed, shakily. "But it wasn't. He knew how to get to me and manipulated me. No, we didn't sleep together." she confirms once again. "Because we didn't, he hasn't left me alone since." she sniffled and let herself snuggle deep into Taehyung's embrace. Just being near him comforted her. Taehyung's heart broke at the sound of her voice. "He had never pushed me to do anything I didn't want to. But that night, it was different. He was trying to talk me into it while touching me. I got scared and pushed him away. That's when he told me the truth about what was going on between us. He told me what he really thought of me. Instead of being disgusted by him," TaeLyn sniffled and pulled away from Taehyung. She scooted further away, hiding herself as she spoke the last of the shameful words from her sinful actions.

"I was disgusted by myself."

Beautiful Ray of Sunshine.