The Outcast Girl ✔

Chapter Two

"Everything that happens in life is for a reason. And is mainly for the better.
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[Julia's past cont.]

It has been two months since mom died, and I wasn't taking it well. I hardly talked, ate, slept nor have I came out of my room. My friends came to talk to me from time to time, because they could see that I was still upset and affected badly. I felt like my whole world just stopped and life meant nothing to me anymore.

If the most important person in your life died,what would you do? The main thing you would do is obviously cry. But, wouldn't you feel like your whole life stopped? you feel like life has left you and took a knife and stabbed you in the back? Yep! well that's how I felt. I didn't know what to do anymore.

I was shocked, speechless, hurt, depressed, and most of all, I became SUICIDAL. I wanted to be in the same place that my mom was. Somewhere out there.....Maybe Heaven.

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ammit! God! why? why her? she did nothing to be treated this way. Life isfair.

The woman that kissed, hugged, loved, cared and laughed with me was gone.

No......this is not real,she's not gone. God, tell me your joking....please somebody please tell me your joking!

I was so frustrated and stressed that I shouted at the top of my lungs 'god why?' over and over until I started to cry.

Then suddenly the door opened to reveal my father.

"Julia? what happin to yuh?" my father asked.

"Why papa? why?" I asked with teary eyes.

"Its gonna be alright,as time go by,yuh will feel betta." my dad said sadly. I knew that he was hurting almost as much as I was.

Men these days.....always trying to act tough.

"Mi don't think so papa. Mi don't think mi can live again. Life to me juss come like sey it stop." I said and shrugged my shoulders.

"Juss move on."

How could he say that? Is he blind? the love of his life just died for Christ's sake!

"Mi have to be strang for yuh princess. If mi cry, mi only gonna mek yuh cry more." he said sad fully and embraced me. "We have to get ova this before yuh go back a school."

I honestly didn't feel like to go anywhere. I was so drained from crying,that I nearly passed out several times.

"Princess, go get some air,an then come back fi lunch. Linda gonna make it and mek sure seh yuh eat it." My dad knew how that I had a eating disorder.

Oh wait, didn't I mention? that nurse that took care of my mom was now living with us, for some reason I don't know. I realized that Linda and my dad were getting really clingy ever since my mom died. And they are always in the master bedroom doing who knows what.

I did what my dad told me to do and got some fresh air. I haven't spoke to my friends recently so I went outside to look for them under the family tree.

"Julia! yuh come outside!" Tezza said.

"Come over an have some fun!" Tahmar said. I went over and sat in the most comfortable place at the tree.

"So,how you holding up?" he asked with deep concern. "Feeling a likkle better?" 

"Yeah, a likkle."