The Outcast Girl ✔

Chapter Forty Eight

•Dedicated to= user62964092
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"The heart takes a longer amount of time to accept something that your mind had already accepted."

-Kamoyrocks
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Julia's POV

"Linda was an amazing lady. Helping everyone around her and loving her family with everything she had. She always tried. Despite how broken, how tired and how overwhelmed she felt. She wasn't the most perfect mother, but she was enough for me. May her soul, rest in peace." I quickly end, wiping my tears and walking down the podium with Jace.

I always hated funerals.

"Okay everyone, as we lower the coffin, we kindly ask you all to sing the following songs..."

I tune out the pastor.

As I stare at Linda's coffin going six feet under the ground, I realised that this funeral wasn't bad.

My heart is broken, completely and utterly broken, but somehow, I'm content on the inside. Despite the madness going on inside my head.

I thought it was the fact that when the police came to the scene and told me that it wasn't a suicide attempt and that it was the guy I saw Linda having an affair with. She told him to kill her.

He still got in jail. But he was bound to go in anyway, because he was a gangster.

Anyways, it wasn't that as to why I felt content. Its the fact that I know that she didn't kill herself. The fact that I know she meant good. I knew deep in my heart that God had forgiven her. She was in a better place. But on top of all of those, what really stood out was the fact that...

She gave me a chance to say goodbye.

And I know that might sound weird, but, its what I feel. Its like she gave me a chance to say goodbye to the first mother I had.

And I will forever be grateful to her.

My heart is broken, but I wasn't. Because now, I can live with the fact that both of my mother's died and that..

Both of them loved me immensely.

And that's just about all the courage I need to move forward. Because, dead or not, they were both still with me.

And they'll live in my heart....

Forever.

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"Julia." I freeze on hearing my dad's voice. "Can I talk to you?"

Jace looks at me, his eyes asking if it was okay. I nodded, kissing his cheek.

"Sure." I gulp.

"I'm sorry." He says sincerely. "For everything."

"Can I ask you something?" I say softly. He nods, wiping his tears.

"Why? Why did you put me through all of this? You put me through a lot. And you weren't even there for me. You left all this burden on me and didn't even bother to come back and help me to bring some. I don't know if you expected me to make it on my own or something, but I did. Without you. My own father. I've always been supportive of you dad but you didn't even call to make sure how I was. And trying to fight has been like hell. Linda put me through hell and you failed to see that." I swallow the lump that forms at my throat.

Looking at this man, who I could once trust but now I kniw that the caring father I once knew was gone, broke my heart into a million pieces.

But with every broken piece scattered, I continue.