The Outcast Girl ✔

Chapter Forty Six

•Dedicated to= tkyler02
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"One day, the wicked will pay. They will pay for all the bad things they've done to people. Your not responsible for that karma, because it will come on its own time."

-Kamoyrocks
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Julia's POV

"Well that's something I never thought that would happen." Jace chuckles as he stuffs his face again with chips.

"What, that yuh ex woulda change?" I snort.

"No, that my girlfriend actually went to my ex's house." I slap him in the arm painfully. "I'm just joking."

"Mhm." I say knowingly.

I missed this.

I missed Jace. I missed having him hold me like a baby and kissing me like I was the last thing on earth.

There's just this thing about us. How we're able to just be our real selves when no one is around. How we're able to be the home of each other after each hurricane.

Its the feeling of complete and outermost happiness whenever I'm around him. The feeling of protection, knowing that I'm safe and nothing can  hurt me.

When I was away, I was lost without him. It was torture yes, never once did a day pass and I didn't think of him. He is always and forever will be my first priority.

At first, I didn't believe it but now that I spent a long time away from him, I now believe that...

He completes me.

And I'm not regretting that. Ever.

There's no way I'm going back now. Not when all my love is for this boy beside me. Not when my love for him has grown tremendously. I can't picture a life without him, even if I tried. That's because, to me,  life without Jace just seems pointless.

Sometimes in life, you have to be patient with yourself. Healing takes time. Achievenents takes time. Success takes time.

So I wouldn't force myself to be okay when I knew deep in my heart that I wasn't. It wouldn't be fair to me. I would just be torturing myself. I didn't have to tell anyone how I felt, well, not if I wanted to. But I just had to feel.

You can't keep on ignoring how you feel because you want to seem strong. But let me tell you something, allowing yourself to feel pain will make you stronger.

Its when your weak that your really strong.

And I'm glad I learned that. Because I honestly feel so much stronger than I used to feel. And that's about the best feeling I could ever have.

Your health is always important.

Self care is everything.

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"Okay Julia. So when you were away, we were planning what to do for your birthday coming soon." Nadine says around the table. I quickly swallow my bacon.

"Really? Yuh don't have to do that." I smile at Bethany when she burps cutely.

"Nonsense. We love you. And, since this is your first birthday celebrating with us, we want to make sure that you enjoy it." She smiles. "And besides we already planned it, and I would force you. So either way, you would still have to go."