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BEFORE: you chose her

Finn acted like nothing happened as he entered our classroom on Monday morning and I was beginning to think that nothing really did, but I'd just be fooling myself.

"Hey," he greets me, settling himself beside me.

"What's up?" I asked.

"Nothing, really. You?"

I had so many questions I wanted to ask him but I only sighed, and said, "finishing this assignment,"

I lied.

"Oh, well, I should leave then. I might be bothering you."

"Yeah, thanks," I smile as he stood and walked over to Kristine who just walked in.

I watched as they greeted each other with a hug and began to talk about something I was too mad to hear.

I stood up and left the room and just as I was about to enter the comfort room, Margot called out to me.

I turned around as she caught up with me.

"Hey," I smile.

"Where are you going?" Margot asks.

"Comfort room?" I said, my answer sounding more like a question.

Silence fell between us and it was only then that I noticed how uneasy Margot was.

I knew she went to Finn's house on Friday night and that she held answers to the questions that have been running through my mind since they told be about the said event, but I wasn't sure now if I wanted to hear them.

Unsure of how to address the situation, I turned around and resumed my walk.

"Kristine was there," She mumbled loud enough for me to hear and halt my steps.

I already knew that. It was obvious and evident with the way Finn acknowledged her a while ago in the room, but it still stung.

I turned to face Margot. She caught up to me once again, her uneasiness replaced with guilt and pity. "I'm sorry," she said.

"Why would you be? It's not your fault." I smiled, assuring her.

I didn't have to be Einstein to know that something happened last Friday night between Finn and Kristine –whether it was in bed or not. For all I know, Finn could've already been bored with me and started hitting her up again.

That's just how it works with Finn. He will always be unpredictable and I will always be gullible.

"Regan?" Margot's voice snapped me out of my pity party. "Are you alright?"

I looked at her before I noticed Finn walking towards us from behind her.

I don't know why but I started walking towards him.

I met him in the middle and brought my right hand up to slap him in the face before walking back to our classroom.

I didn't slap him as hard as I wanted to because I knew I had no right.

I was the dumb and gullible one to fall for his words. I knew what I was getting in to, but I still fell for it.

For the rest of the day, I stayed quiet. I refused to even look at Finn –which didn't bother him at all since I could still hear him laughing with Kristine– and I barely responded to Margot and Lydia.

By the end of the day, I rushed straight out of my last class, not wanting to deal with anything or anyone.

As I approached the exit gate of our school, I felt my pocket for my phone out of habit and started panicking when I felt nothing of the sort.

I moved to the side and started searching my bag for my phone but I had no luck until I remembered that I kept it in the compartment under my desk and immediately ran back up to retrieve it.

Since our school was low in space, instead of using lockers that will only narrow the space of the hallways even more, we had desks with compartments and I stupidly left my phone in mine.

As I reached the floor of our classroom, I bolted to the door which was surprisingly open.

I immediately stopped and hid to the side once I heard Margot's voice.

"I can't believe you could do that to her!" Margot said. "I mean I can, but I didn't think you could do it this soon and at that way."

"I just don't know how to tell her, Margot," Finn says.

I couldn't help myself when I walked into the room and caught both of their attention, "Tell me what?" I asked.

I already knew what he was going to say, but I was getting tired of all the denial and ignorance. I just wanted all of this to be over.

Finn stared at me and I did the same to him. While I was sure my eyes held sadness and anger, his held pity. I felt like crying then and there but I kept my composure.

"Uhm..." Finn hummed, scratching the back of his head. "Regan, look, I'm not sure what you heard or what you know, but hear me out."

I continued to stare at him, urging him to go on. It was like willingly letting someone push me off a cliff.

He opened his mouth to continue, but closed it back again. And it angered me.

"Go, Finn." I said.

"What?" He stared at me in confusion.

"Just go. I don't wanna hear it anymore."

"Regan," He takes a step closer as I take a step back.

"Finn, if it's not me that you want then it's not me." I said, taking a deep breath, hoping it would keep my tears at bay.

Finn nodded, looked at Margot and then back to me, before walking out.

As soon as Finn closed the door, Margot spoke.

"Regan, are you okay?" She asked.

I nodded and headed to my desk to retrieve my phone.

I couldn't hold back my tears anymore. I looked at Margot with tears running down my face and neck and said, "I just really thought I had lost my phone,"

Her eyes softened as she gave me a small smile, "Let's get ice cream."