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Chapter 19

The FLY tour had ended. Bambam went to go to a psychologist to make sure that none of the things that people were saying were getting to his head. But even with the professional help, bambam was still very upset and his members could say depressed. Yugyeom spent most of his time with bambam, making sure that his friend hadn't done anything stupid like hurt himself. He was genuinely worried but he was also getting backlash too. People on the internet are brutal. That's what yugyeom concluded. It seemed like they were all getting hate besides the ones that were nowhere to be seen. The drama all surrounded yugyeom mark and bambam but mostly the younger two. Mark and jackson stayed close to each other throughout the whole thing and weren't to be seen from the other members unless it was for using the bathroom or showers. Jinyoung was the only one who wasn't effected by this so he was the one to do all of the errands. "Hyung... i just don't get it... why are people hating on me? Am i really fat?" Yugyeom's voice broke at the end. Jaebum scooped the maknae into a hug and began to rock him back and forth like a mother comforting her child. "Yugyeom-ah.. Don't listen to the mean people on the internet. They're attacking you for no reason. You're perfect the way you are and i don't want you to ever change." Yugyeom let out a light sigh at his leader's words and hugged jaebum. Jaebum himself was struggling so much as is. He knew that his members needed help too. Jackson was dealing with mark and so it was just jinyoung him and youngjae having to cheer up the two who were most effected. "Bambam you did what!?" Youngjae yelled out. "I had to apologize hyung i had to! I couldn't live with myself if i just hid while everyone is dealing with it. I had to apologize and say what i had to say." Youngjae scoffed and shook his head. "bambam you could get suspended from any and ALL activities for going against jyp's orders you know that right?!" Bambam nodded and looked down. "I had too hyung..... i just feel so bad I didn't want to make anything worse by hiding." Youngjae nodded and pulled bambam into a hug. "I'm so sorry that this is happening. We shouldn't have went to LA." Youngjae and Bambam stood there in a tight embrace, on comforting the other. 

As days passed, it seemed that GOT7 had been suspended from any and all activities. They had gone completely quiet and the news about what happened in LA had slowly start to go down. While the other boys had played on the PS4 that they had set up, jaebum was cooped up in the his room, looking through his phone. Youngjae laughed loudly as the maknae's pushed and shoved each other and jinyoung as they continued to do a 1 v 1 v 1 on modern warfare. Youngjae felt his wrist begin to sting, realizing that it was time to check on jaebum. "I'll be right back, tell me who wins." The boys nodded. "IF any of them win," jackson added. Youngjae chuckled as he got up from the couch and moved towards the leader's dorm room. "Hyung.... Can i come in?" He heard a soft hum in response and he entered the room. "Hey hyung.. How are you holding up?" Jaebum took his eyes off of his phone and looked at youngjae. Youngjae stared wide eyed at his hyung when he turned to face him. Jaebum's eyes were swollen and puffy, his face was covered by the hoodie but you could see that is nose was still a little red. "I'm doing fine youngjae.. Don't worry." Youngjae heard how raw jaebum's voice was. His voice broke half way through that sentence but any fool could see that jaebum had been crying. But for how long was the question. "You don't sound or look fine hyung. Plus you've been saying that for almost 4 weeks now. You aren't okay. Tell me what's wrong." Jaebum shook his head, he looked over at the door and then turned away from youngjae. As if he read his mind, youngjae shut the door and locked it, then going to sit down on the bed with jaebum. "It's okay hyung.... no one can hear us now. I wont tell anyone. Just please don't hold it in anymore.." Jaebum slowly got up and gestured for youngjae to come to him. Youngjae went over and hugged jaebum tightly, feeling the singer hug back. "I just.... I wanted to have a good time in LA. This is all my fault. I shouldn't have brought up having a party at mark's house. This is all my fault youngjae... It's all my fault.." Jaebum began to cry into the younger's shoulder, his sobs becoming more silent. Youngjae could feel the tears soak his shirt and the hands of a once proud leader, cling to the fabric for dear life; Never letting go of the younger. "This is all my fault....." He whispered through his choked sobs. Youngjae rubbed circles into the singer's back, never letting go of the older. "It's not your fault jaebum. Don't ever blame yourself. Whatever you're reading from the bad people... stop. None of this was your fault. You're the leader and yes you bare the responsibility of the group, but don't ever take the whole blame. It wasn't you who filmed and took pictures of us to post on the internet without our permission. It wasn't you who said bad things. It wasn't you who got drunk. All you wanted was for us to relax and have some fun. I know you didn't want this to happen to any of us. Please jaebum.... Hyung.. Don't blame yourself. You aren't the only one who bares the blame. We go through rough times. We come back from them. We learn from our mistakes. Do not ever think that you have to go through this alone. No one in this group should shoulder this pain. If you carry this mountain of bad energy all by yourself, your back will give out again. We're band members but more importantly we're family. We don't ever go through things alone. We have each other's back. LA was a mistake in our history sure, but all of know better now. BamBam definitely knows, so does yugyeom and mark will be more careful as well. Hyung. You are the greatest leader i could've ever asked for. You are Im Jaebum, Leader of GOT7!!! this bump in the road will be here for years to come but will be a learning experience for all of us. So please.... come back to us. Be healthy, and if you can't find the strength to be happy.. then be a little more than okay. You will find your strength. You will find your happiness. I can't guarantee that it'll be right away but if you ever need a crutch to lean on, you have us. You have GOT7. " By this time jaebum was listening to the comforting words of his soul mate. He listened to how soothing and calm the younger's voice was and by then he had already calmed down. "Thank you youngjae-ah." He spoke softly. Youngjae gave his hyung a soft squeeze in response and reluctantly let go, bringing his hands up to jaebum's face to wipe away any left over tears. Youngjae chuckled at how jaebum reacted to such an intimate act. "Aren't I the one who's supposed to be doing this to you?" Jaebum asked playfully. Youngjae chuckled once more and rolled his eyes. "I'm not the cry baby here hyung." Jaebum scoffed and tackled youngjae, plopping down on the bed and holding him close. The two of them looked at each other and jaebum smirked. "What is it now hyung?" Youngjae asked. "Nothing. I just remembered something all those years ago when we first came out with 'A'. " Youngjae shot him a look before remembering what he was talking about. "You mean that surprise trip to Mokpo?" Jaebum nodded softly and smiled, sniffling and rubbing his nose. "I remember you got so freaked out because you couldn't tell where we were. I'll never forget the look on your face when you woke up at the pit-stop. You got SO freaked out you thought we were gonna disband for sure!" Jaebum snorted at the memory and youngjae smacked his chest. "Yah! Hyung! if you're gonna make fun of me i can leave you to keep crying by yourself i don't need this!" Jaebum held youngjae closer and cuddled him like a teddy bear. "I was just kidding youngjae-ah don't go.  Yah!! Watch who you're talking to. I'm your hyung watch it." Youngjae rolled his eyes and sighed. "God you're like my sister after watching descendants of the sun seriously. When did you become a hormonal teenage kid huh?" Jaebum rolled his eyes and blew in youngjae's ear. "since i became a teenager" Youngjae groaned in disdain as the shook his head and struggled to get out of his hyung's grip. "StoP BLOWING IN MY Ear!!!!" Jaebum giggled at the younger's reaction and looked at him. Youngjae sat up and looked at his hyung after about a minute of trying to get out of his grip. His eyes met with jaebum's and it was like being pulled into a different world. The room grew darker as the two kept the locked eye contact. The noise from the other boys being drowned out by a song that had been playing in both of their heads. 

"Youngjae-ah.."

"Yeah hyung?"

"I have to ... no... i need to tell you something."

"What is it hyung?"

"i.... Choi Youngjae. I lov-"

"HYUNG HYUNG GUESS WHAT!!! I WON!!! I BEAT YUGYEOM MARK JACKSON AND JINYOUNG!!!!"