Will She?

9.Don't cry

"No don't leave me"

"Tessa" a voice called

"No"

"Tessa"it called again

I opened my eyes to see Bart kneeling down by the side of the bed.

"Tes look at me" he said.

I looked up at him and he brought his lips down to my earlobes and like Char used to say whenever I am afraid he said
"It is going to be alright".

He hugged me and I put my head on his chest then it felt like home.

Just as he was about to leave I held his elbow "Please don't leave" I said.

Cliché right? But dammit, I am too scared to care whether it is cliche or not at this moment. I just need someone by my side.

Then he slept on my bed and there was an awkward silence.
I snuggled into him and his whole body stiffened but minutes later he put his hand into my long blonde hair.

"Bart..."

"I know, just because you told me to stay does not mean we are friends" he said cutting me off.

I chuckled silently "that is not what I wanted to say" I said as tears fell from my eyes onto his chest.

"Shh, don't cry Tessa, I'm sorry I shouldn't have said that "he said.

I laughed again "That is not why I was crying" I said.

"So...so..um..do you mind if I ask..um..why?"he stuttered.

"I always wanted to kill you" I said.

"What?!"He half yelled, I couldn't tell if it was sarcasm or surprise

"I always wanted to kill you because I thought you killed Char on that day you shouted at her. Well technically speaking, I wasn't planning to kill you as in kill you. I just wanted to make your life miserable. She was afraid and fell off the tree"I paused to look up at him then continued.

"I was really angry and never thought of it as my fault on that day. But today, I had a dream"

"Char knew I would blame someone else. That is why her last words were 'don't say I didn't warn you' I never heard those words until today. I was crying when she was speaking and when she said it, I just saw her mouth move and I didn't make sense of it".

"She told me she didn't want to go to the park nor did she want to climb the tree, but I never listened. I killed my friend myself" I gently said.

"I don't deserve to be alive. If she hadn't met me, she would be alive. If she hadn't become my best friend, at least I will see those shining blue eyes" I whispered as tears ran down my face.

"If only she hadn't met me, she would still be her cheerful self instead of nothing but bones that are six feet below the ground. If I had not become her friend, this guilt would not be eating me up"I whispered holding my breathe.

"I am nothing but a selfish friend who killed her best friend due to her own relentless selfishness. I never deserved her and I never will" I finally finished.

"You really don't have to comment" I said to bart.

Then I began crying until my eyes were heavy. I took a deep breathe and I felt a burden being lifted. I closed my eye and let sleep take over but not before I heard Bart say "It will be well, this time I promise"

I felt a smile find it way onto my lips and I snuggled back into Bart.

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Whoa that was one chapter. Everybody take a deep breathe and clean off those tears. Buckle your seat belt 'cause the story just began.

I feel dehydrated. Love y'all.