Broken -Destiel-

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We're in the parking lot of Sam's school waiting for him to be dismissed, We still had 10 minutes left. "Dean.." he looked over at me and nodded for me to continue "aren't you afraid to be seen with me in public?" He looked at me like I was crazy "no Cas, absolutely not. Why would you think that?"
"I don't know, because you're the schools most popular guy and I'm just a nerd that nobody pays attention to so I would assume by people seeing us together it would bring your reputation down" I rambled "Listen, I don't care about my reputation, I never did and I'm sure as hell not going to start now"
"Oh" was all I could say. So he didn't care about us being together "is that why you always seemed hesitant on speaking to me in school? You didn't want people to see you with me?"

I looked at my hands in my laps and started to play with my thumbs "kinda, yeah" I admitted
"Cas, every time I see you, I want to talk to you. Please don't think any 'reputation' is more important than you" my ears started to burn and I could feel my cheeks heat up a bit too.

Before I could say anything else I noticed a young boy walking up to the car we were in. He was tall for his age, a little muscular than I would expect, he had semi long brown hair and hazel looking eyes. "Sam?" I asked Dean "yup" he said, popping the 'p'
The boy, Sam, made eye contact with me and nodded while walking to the back seat. He got in and scooted to the middle seat "hey Dean, hey.." he trailed off "Castiel" Dean said before I got a chance "hey Castiel" Sam greeted "hello Sam"

Sam and Dean started talking, Sam about his day and Dean about the fire that had happened. I was looking out the window when the car had started to move. I had to act happy for Dean, but the events that happened today had me feeling disgusted with myself. I had the chance and I let him take it away from me. How stupid is that?

I was snapped out of my thoughts as I felt a hand slowly touch mine that rested on my lap. I smiled at Dean and took his hand. He spoke softly to me so Sam wouldn't hear and with every word he tapped on my hand with his thumb "Everything. Will. Be. Okay" I squeezed his hand as softly as I could so I don't hurt him and I looked at him again and smiled.

I noticed Sam peek over the seats and look down at our hands "so are you guys like...together?" He asked. Dean looked over at me and smirked "I don't know, Sammy"
"It's Sam" he huffed, leaning back in the seat with his arms crossed over his chest.

When we finally got to Dean's house we all walked in and went our separate ways, Sam to his room and Dean and I to the living room. "Sit" He commanded. I did as told and looked up at him "why?" "Stay"
"I'm not a dog, Dean" he didn't say anything, just walked into the kitchen.
He walked back out with grapes, two apples and two glasses of water "eat" he commanded once again "Dean, why?"
"You're getting skinnier" my heart dropped and I didn't argue with him because the truth Is, is I had recently been skipping meals, and drinking a lot of water when I did eat so that I would feel full faster. We both ate in silence for a bit and he turned on the Tv, Sherlock. I jumped up, eyes locked on the tv and watched intensely as Sherlock was drawing a mustache on his face to surprise John with.

~

A few hours go by and I'm still at Dean's house, still on the couch with him but we weren't watching Sherlock no more, instead we were cuddling. He was lying down on his back and I was in his arms, head on his chest. We've been like this for about a half hour when Dean suddenly pulled me up a bit so we were face to face, really close. He looked at me and leaned in, making our lips touch. I moved my mouth along with his and he pulled me up close so I was now straddling him, though never breaking the kiss. He moaned when I pushed my hips down a little bit onto him. He pulled me closer, if that was even possible, when we heard Sam running down the stairs "woah! Oh god! Oh my god, my eyes!" He screamed, putting his hand over his eyes. I scrambled off Dean and sat up next to him. "Hia Sammy" Dean said, running a hand through his hair "um, okay, I uh, I just came down here to show you this but I mean, if you're busy I'll come -I'll show- you later" he stuttered out "Sam, it's alright, what is it?"
He walked over and gave Dean his phone. It was messages, from a girl named Ruby to Sam

Ruby:
Someone sent me a picture of this, is it real?

The picture was Dean and I after he carried me out of the building, he was holding me in his arms as I was crying, but you couldn't tell I had been.

Sam:
I'm not sure, why?

Ruby:
Because Castiel, Sam. He's a loser, he can't go around with Dean, Dean is too good for him

Sam:
Go to Hell, Ruby. Dean doesn't care one bit about what people think of him and if he's happy that's all that matters. He can be with whoever he wants to be. And don't you dare talk about Castiel like that again or I swear shit will go down

Ruby:
Chill out Sam

Sam hadn't responded to her after that. I did feel a slight smile when Sam had stuck up for me, but I was more concerned about Dean's reaction. "Thanks Sammy, don't let her over here no more, got it?" "Don't worry" he said and walked off.

"Dean, I-"
"Cas, listen to me, alright?"
"Okay"
"When I met you the day I seen Anna hurting you, I knew I had to get to know you more, to protect you too. I knew you were someone I needed in my life and that date..that date was amazing. Seeing you smile like that and how comfortable you were with me, I knew. You're more important than you think you are, Cas. So I just have one question for you, Castiel Novak, will you be my boyfriend?"
"Yes" I exclaimed. I leaned over to hug and kiss him

"About time!" Sam yelled, cause Dean and I to laugh