you know that feeling, that feeling when you feel like everything is crumbling around you?
yeah, me too
that feeling you get when your significant other starts talking to someone else
that feeling when everything is just, not as it used to be
the fact that it'll never be as it used to be, makes me sad
i miss those days
i miss not having depression
anxiety
self-accepting issues
pain
taking medication
i miss when i actually slept at night
If this is love then I don't wanna be loved
every time I wake up, im afraid someone else will take my place
im slowly falling
there's a voice in my head saying, join me dance with the dead
its all to hard to deal with
we got caught
caught doing one of the worst sins
im so disgusted with myself
i haven't gotten up today
im afraid to get up
afraid to move
afraid to live
im just afraid
im afraid of losing him
losing myself
god, i hate myself sometimes
no amount of medication cannchange that
change the fact i can't feel anything
how can i when life is just fucking me in the ass
god I wish I could save him
save her
save myself
i need someone
someone to hold me
someone to tell everything to
someone to just... listen
is this what it takes to fake a smile and say everything is ok?
we're hopeless, buried alive in what we say
we make mistakes along the way
we're hopeless and in dismay
when will this change
I dont wanna run away
All of this pain, when will it all go away
i just wanna leave this place behind
life can turn you upside down , chew you up and spit you out
tear you up it never ends
it just goes on and on and on and on
hold on to that heartbreak
hold on to that hell you have to pay
sometimes its the only thing that gets you by
all the tragedies make you who you are
i wish it was easier
i just wanna give up
but i can't
i need to stay with him
i just hope he stays with me...
february 4th
12:15 p.m
