Forgetting Cynthia

First day basis

"I guess I gotta crawl before I can walk

I guess I gotta grow before we can talk

And I have the upper hand

I'm good at letting go but I'm getting better

You're never gonna know but you'll get a letter

I hope you understand

I never wanted it to go this far

Never thought it would be so hard

I never thought i would lose myself

But now I'm left with nothing else

Cause you're so typical

You're so damn typical

You're so typical

You're so damn typical

I guess you gotta lose before you can listen

I guess you gotta choose to see what you're missing

I am the better man

I'm good at letting go but I'm getting better

You're never gonna know but you'll get a letter

I hope you understand

I never wanted it to go this far

Never thought it would be so hard

I never thought i would lose myself

But now i'm left with nothing else"

"Do you even know how to get there?" I asked Erik impatiently. "uhhm yeah I do. " he replied with hesitation. He finally took a left and got us on the right road. I wasn't looking forward to going back to school. Yeah woooh education. But no one there wants me and no one even thinks I belong. Rumors spread. Some think I killed my parents. Some say that my parents abandoned me and I make up stupid stories. Some people just ignore my existence all together. Or at least most of them do. There are about three people that go against the rest of the school. Aaron, Caleb, and Athena. My lunchmates. We all have alot in common but none of them know about the truth. When we all became friends, we promised just not to talk about it. Athena wasn't as outcasted as me, but she got a few bad marks for being my friend. I was skater style, she was party girl. She had dirty blonde hair that was just past her shoulders and always crazily crimped. She wore light brown eyeshadow to bring out the naturalness of her and accent her brown eyes. High cheek bones and super tan skin. She was just a few shades lighter than a mexican. She was taller with long legs but didnt have very large boobs. So she invested in push ups and water bras. She got drunk on a daily basis. And flirted with most that walked. But she loves me and we have a good friendship. Aaron is my guyfriend. He has messy brown hair and is mexican with a thick accent that make the girls go crazy. We joke and he is very funny. He is just an inch or two taller than athena. And those two are crazy for each other. He doesnt have a father so he can sort of relate to me and thats how we became friends. Now caleb is whole new story. He just switched in from last year and hardly talks. He only spoke twice and both times it was to me. Rumors say he has been in jail and boarding schools across the country. But he is a good listener and good company.Athena doesn't really like him though. For no apparent reason. Caleb is a blonde and spikes his hair daily. Just as white as I am though with hazel eyes with brown and blue in them. Though i have athena and aaron in none of my classes but lunch, caleb is In every class i have with me. I do plan to be a mechanic or an architect so its not a huge coincidence whereas if i wanted to be a fashion designer though. I didn't really like school though. They were just the bright side. We pulled up to the huge black iron gates. The gray stone stared back at me. It almost looks like a prison. Save for the Huge trees all around it. Bright and green. The truck came to a stop. "Cynthia, is right here fine?" he asked as he took the keys out of the egnition. "Yup.Thanks Erik. For everything." I said and kissed him on the cheek. "see you later. " he cheered smiled and winked as I got out of the truck. I shut the door and started walking to my dorm.My dormate was a different story though. She was a bitch! she had entirely to much make up on at all times and had incredibly fake blonde hair. And she hated me. She would yell at me and take my stuff. Play pranks on me. Blackmail me. Make fun of me all the time and say really hurtful things. But if i got expelled from this school it would ruin my career and just get me beatings from my uncle. So I had a lockbox for all my stuff and usually hardly slept at night until she did. Then completely ignored her the rest of the time. I slowly opened the door. "Hey freak, where have you been?" she greeted. I grit my teeth. I started getting my stuff for classes ready. Which was only paper and pens because i persuaded the teachers to let me keep my stuff in the classrooms. Since emily would eventually Sabotage that too. I got a shoe thrown at me. "I asked you a question" she yelled. I continued to ignore her only to piss her off further. Which amused me. "Listen here you little b*tch i asked you a question and you have to answer it." she said obviously pissed. "I dont have to do jack squat. And where was is no concern to you." I practically laughed out. I then went to the door and left for class. Slamming it behind me. I caught up with Aaron. "hey chicka." he greeted and gave me a warm hug. "how was your weekend?" i asked politely. "Positively great. I just worked out got high and got a piercing." he said musically with his accent. "hah! Cool. What did you get pierced?" i asked. He turned so I could see his whole face. "snake bites." he said thickly. They were silver hoops with light blue pointed studs. "what do you think?" he asked thoughtfully. "they. .well they look amazing!" I exclaimed. He brimmed with happiness. "How was your weekend?" he returned the question with all curiousness. "went to the cliff after we got out and I jumped. Willingly but unwillingly. And i met this guy. And i stayed with him all weekend. We talked we played videogames and did crazy stuff." i tryed to explain without explaining. "crazy stuff?" he raised his eyebrows at me. " such as shoplift and egg houses." i said not believing the words out of my mouth and thw happy feeling inside of me. "his name chicka" he kind of demanded. "Erik Tyler. He got me the shoes..and socks. " i confessed. He Looked at my DC'S. "Not a bad gift. Especially for you" he said on another world. I shrugged it off as we came to the breakfast table where athena and caleb were uncomfortably waiting. Athena brightened. She spotted the snake bites. And she liked. I laughed outloud and they all looked at me. I eyed athena. She shrugged and continued checking out Aaron and biting her lip. "cynthia met a guy" aaron snitched to athena and caleb. And got athena started and a shocked look from caleb."name?" athena asked first.