Forgetting Cynthia

Having her Home

(When this began)

I had nothing to say

And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me

(I was confused)

And I let it all out to find

That I'm not the only person with these things in mind

(Inside of me)

But all that they can see the words revealed

Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel

(Nothing to lose)

Just stuck, hollow and alone

And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Chorus]

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real

I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long

(Erase all the pain till it's gone)

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real

I wanna find something I've wanted all along

Somewhere I belong

And I've got nothing to say

I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face

(I was confused)

Looking everywhere only to find

That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind

(So what am I)

What do I have but negativity

'Cause I can't justify the way, everyone is looking at me

(Nothing to lose)

Nothing to gain, hollow and alone

And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Repeat Chorus]

I will never know myself until I do this on my own

And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed

I will never be anything till I break away from me

I will break away, I'll find myself today

[Repeat Chorus]

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong

Somewhere I belong

"Hey man thanks for the help" I said to caleb.

"No problem dude, anytime." Caleb said to me. "I have to go, my parents are expecting a call they arent going to get so they might stop financing me.bye cynthia, bye erik."

I looked over to cynthia who was just spinning slowly and silently in the hanging chair.She has seemed so down lately since the hospital.

"Wheres my uncle, erik?" she asked me, she was so solemn.

"I'm not sure..he stopped by the hospital.. thats all i know." I lied, to try to keep her from getting hurt.

She pulled her knees up to her chin and rested her forehead on top of her knees. Her breathing was rapid. she was crying.

"Cynthia, whats wrong with you? You've been like this since the hospital?" I asked wish un masked concern in my voice.

"Erik, i don't want your sympathy. I dont want your comfort. I was just almost beaten to death. Let me deal with it. thanks and all but i cant do much." she said quietly.