Forgetting Cynthia

Walking down the wrong path

everythings so blurry and everyones so fake and everybodys empty and everything is so messed up . be occupied without you i cannot live at all, my whole world surrounds you i stumble and i crawl you could be my someone you could be my scene. I'll protect you from all of the obscene . i wonder what your doing, imagine where you are..

I sat down at the table. where did erik go? I called caleb.

Me: hey

Caleb: yeah?

Me: Can you come over? im really bored and worried about erik . he wont answer any of my calls or texts and its been hours since he walked out.

Caleb: Did you guys fight or something?

Me:something like that i guess. its just im worried ya know.

Caleb: Yeah i understand and i will be right over . bye.

The phone line ended with a beeping sound and i made my way to the kitchen to make a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. about 10 minutes into a show called "Vampire Diaries" there was a knock on the door. I hobbled over and undid the locks, knowing that caleb had arrived. I opened the door, and he stood there with his blonde bedhead , smoky hazel eyes, black button up with a white beater underneath, and some light faded jeans. I've never thought of him as cute in my life until now when he looked like a man. a sexy blonde man. NO! STOP BEING A PERVO i shouted at myself in my head.

"Whats up?" He said smirking to the left, showing off his white teeth. "Im worried...but i found something to keep us occupied." I said inviting him in.

"Whats that?" Caleb asked inquiringly.

"i want to learn how to pick a lock" I said.

"And you think i know how to?" He asked sarcastically dumbfounded.

"Actually, it was kind of a given but even if you didnt theres always youtube" I said seriously.

"Well what do you need?" He asked.

"Well the video said a lockpick set , and il probably need some locks to test it on . " I said rubbing my chin on the couch cushion that i was now sittin down on.

"I'll run to the hardware store" he said walking back out the door.

i sat there and thought about erik. I'm not entirely sure that i wanted to get attacdhed to him or that i even liked him. I did kiss him. But i was on an emotional high , but since i got injured i haven't been letting my emotions cloud my judgement. I've been thinking clearly. crystaline in fact. And erik was really nice , sexy, and rich. But im not sure if i "liked" him yet. I mean what if i liked caleb? or even aaron? how would i know? i've never even thought of bringing someone else into my mess of a life. I mean why would i want to share my problems with someone else? they were enough of a burden on myself. But i did tell aaron, and i also brought erik into it. more like he pushed himself in. And caleb had known for a while. so honestly it could be either one of them. And each of them has flaws.But those in glass houses shouldn't throw stones. And aaron is more of a brother to me, i doubt that he even thinks of me like that. Plus athena and aaron are good for eachother. so caleb or erik? I guess only time could tell.My door re opened and caleb stood there with a bag of random supplies. Looking just as good coming through the door the second time as the first.

"Miss me?" He asked arrogantly.

"Loads, now teach meeee." I whined.

He started demonstrating it, but i started to check him out and zoned out completely.

"Cynthia! are you listening? now you have to turn this and then it opens. okay?" He asked wondering if i understood. embarassed, i shook my head yes and tried to do what i could. He helped me on what i didnt understand and soon i could do it. It had taken us a good half and hour to learn it.

"Goodjob!" caleb praised.

"I'm going back to school." I said.

"Oh okay, well hopefully you heal fast. i can help you catch up on homework too. its pretty easy." He said understandingly.

"thank you, for telling the truth before all this happened. but im not sure if i can trust you." I confessed looking him in the eyes.

"everything i told you is completely true. and I want you to know that you can trust me. I never want to hurt you. ever." Caleb said looking me in the eyes and holding my face gently. He leaned in on the couch. I thought he was going to kiss me. Im not ready for that.

"uhm, do you want all the extra stuff you got from the store back? I dont need it here, in fact i was hoping i could keep this little talent to myself and on the downlow." I said interrupting whatever was going on.

"Yeah sure i can keep it. its no problem. i wont tell a soul. cross my heart and hope to die." He said crossing his heart and falling to the ground clutching his chest, faking death.

"Haha very funny caleb" I said sarcastically.

"Erik said you've been distant lately. Anything you want to talk about ? " He asked curiously.

I was getting so pissed off at everyone trying to be in my business. If i wanted to be down and distant thhen i was going to be and no one can do anything about it.But when i went off on erik he left. so maybe i should leave so i dont say something hurtful to caleb.

"I'm going on a walk. you can leave. I dont want to talk about it. " I said staring the opposite direction.

Caleb stood up. I stood up. "cynthia.." Caleb said softly, and kinda sadly. I turned around. And he pulled my wrist and brought me close to him, then he grabbed my face and kissed me on the lips. His lips were warm and inviting. The kiss made me feel cared for. I almost forgot what it was like. A tear slipped from my closed eyes. I pushed him off and he stood there expressionless as i walked out of the door. I exited the building and walked opposite the way that caleb would go. I had the lockpicking set in my pocket. I walked as best aas i could down the sidewalk.

Then out of nowhere i heard car doors open and someone grabbed me and covered my mouth. I screamed then tried to bite the persons hand. They pulled me into the back of what looked like a van. I screamed more and the person hit me. They gagged me , bound me, and blindfolded me. I kicked and thrashed out.

"I like them fiesty." A male voice said creepily in my ear. A needle was stabbed into my arm and i was drifting to sleep as he said "Sweetheart youre so pretty you might not want to wake up."