Forgetting Cynthia

Pretending chapter 12

Face down; this is where it leads you - too far.

Buried covered now, you'll find peace - in the earth a ground.

Stop now, there's no point in breathing - it's not allowed.

On the surface, how can you find - reason to move on?

Until then you can runaway.

Do your best to hide your face.

And oh I know you best;

I know you get what you get

you get what you deserve.

Hush now, don't say a word - it's out in the open,

And tell me how can you deal with all this weight?

Speak now, you must have a secret kept down,

Down where you can keep it - I need you to spill your guts.

Until then you can runaway,

Do your best to hide your face.

And oh I know you best.

I know you get what you get

Until then you can runaway.

Do your best to hide your face.

And oh I know you best.

I know you get what you get

you get what you deserve.

Speak now you must have a secret kept down,

Down where you can keep it - I need you to spill your guts.

The days passed so slowly, all the while erik and caleb kept me company. One time that erik left to go change, caleb and I had finally had a few moments to talk.

"You didnt tell erik who you are to me?" I asked because caleb was obviously still alive.

"I'm not even really sure who I am to you cynthia." He says quietly and downfallen.

"You're who I know you as. My friend, the past is over with. I am who I am, im just going to let it go because there isn't much that i can do caleb" I said honestly gazing into his worried hazel eyes.

Relief floods over his features as he mutters " good, because I didn't want to lose you."

I get up slowly from the bed to give him a hug. He tenses under the touch and shock of my affections. Once I let go he easily relaxes and takes on a stern tone. "cynthia you need to rest." caleb warned.

And so then i crawled back in bed and slept until later that thursday evening.

"Oh my poor best friend!" Athena cries waking me from my sleepiness. She comes in and hugs the crap out of me.

"Whats happened? no one has told me anything!" she exclaims.

"I think I fell, its still a little foggy from the head trauma." I say covering up with lies. Athena does not know much about why I get so sad sometimes, i like to think as if i am protecting her from the harsh reality.

" Oh you poor thing! I brought you some perfume and a change of clothes when your discharged since I figured erik and caleb shouldnt be going through your clothes" She stated glaring daggers at caleb and erik. She can be a pervert sometimes, but she does have a point.

"hmph" Said a deep voice from the door.

Aaron walked in giving me a single white rose, and giving athena a peppermint, her favorite candy.

"sorry I was late chica bonita, I had to swing by somewhere first." He said with his thick accent. Athena almost fainted, He leaned down and I kissed him on the cheek.

"My deepest sympathies chica" He whispers in my ear out of earshot from the other three in the room. He knew, he guessed that i was abused on weekend when i came back early from the holidays. And then we talked it over. And he understands just like in every other aspect of my life.

"I dont have perfect grades, so i have to get back. love you cynthia get well soon" Athena said and left. Aaron stood back up and went and whispered to caleb. Caleb left with a quick glance and a wave with a hint of reluctancy in his eyes.

"What did you say to him?" I asked out of curiosity.

"I told him he needed to get back to school before some of the teachers have his head, and told him that he should probably get your missing work as well since you wont be back til next week." Explained Aaron. He always had a special way of making me feel like i was tooken care of.

"You guys can go home, I'm getting discharged tomorrow and i can see you in the morning. I just want some time to rest peacefully." I told them giving them a bright reassuring smile.

"If you insist cynthia" Erik said and was the first to go.

"Even if you dont want me here, il be there for you chica, go easy on yourself." Aaron told me and dropped his jacket into my lap.

I looked at him questioningly.

"Once i leave your going to cry, my jacket smells good and I want it to comfort you. I told you id be there" Aaron says and points to my heart. and walks away.

And he was right. I start to cry and tears roll down my face. I miss my mom, I wish my uncle was different, I wish my life was different, I miss being happy. I hug his jacket tightly and it does smell good. Then fall into a cry related sleep, and dream of every possibility.

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