Newlyweds (A Brantley Gilbert Fan-Fiction AU)

15

A/N

You all are going to find a lot of things out in this chapter. So PLEASE READ CAREFULLY!!!!!

Ava's Pov

I just looked at the same spot on the wall for the past 19 hours now. I can't move. I feel my body slowly dying more and more. I can't believe what the doctors told me. I can't even look at my own face. I don't know how anyone can take the news like I did. When the doctor told Brantley and I the bad news, I saw a small piece of Brantley die right then and there. I looked at the clock on the bed side table and saw it was going on 7 in the morning. I've been laying in bed since Brantley and I got home. I'm glad Becky was here for the boys, because I knew I couldn't help Blake nor Ned like I should do. Poor Ned. I have to be strong for that little boy. He needs me. 

When I told Brantley to leave me alone, I knew I was making a big mistake? This is hard for him as well. Not just me. We are in this together. I heard my cell phone go off and saw it was time for me to take my pills again. I got out of bed and walked over to the bathroom medicine cabinet and opened it up. Xanax and Valium for my Anxiety. Celexa, Paxil and Zoloft for my Depression. I took all of them in my mouth plus my Metformin for my Type 2 Diabetes. After I took all of my pills I grabbed my Insulin shot. After I was done I looked at all of my pills. This is all my fault. This is why I lost the baby. I shook my head and walked back to bed. 

I sat down on the bed so I can cry again. I just want to give up. I'm only 27 years old and here I am trying to have a baby with the man of my dreams and I lost another baby. Why didn't the doctor tell me about taking all of these pills would make me miscarry a baby. I know Brantley is blaming me for all of this. In some way I don't blame him for leaving me. I was about to go and lie down again when the bedroom door opened up and there was Ned and Blake. 

"Mommy, I don't want to leave you?" Ned said to me. I gave him a sad smile.

"Blake, go call the school and tell them you and Ned won't be in school today." I said to my brother. 

"You sure Avie." Blake asked me. I smiled at Ned. 

"Yes. Ned, honey come back to bed with me." I said to my 5 year old son. 

"Great. I'm going back to bed too." Blake said walking out of the bedroom. Ned jumped on my bed. 

"Come on honey lets go back to bed." I said to him. Ned cuddled up right to me. 

"Mommy, when is daddy coming home?" Ned asked me. I kissed the top of his head.  

"I don't know baby. Daddy just needs to be away for a while." I said to him. Ned looked up at me. 

"You won't leave me will you mommy?" Ned asked me. I looked down at him. 

"No baby. Mommy is staying right here." I said to him. 

"Good. I love you mommy." Ned said to me. I wipe my tears away. 

"I love you too Ned. Come on. Mommy is getting tired." I said to him. 

Ned went back to sleep in no time. I laid there looking at my son. Brantley and I was very grateful when we adopted Ned. I know there is more children out there that would love to have a family like ours. But I want to give Brantley a son or a daughter. The child that I would carry for him.

 Ever since I was 14 years old I've been taking my Xanax and my Valium for my anxiety. I was 20 when I got diabetes. It wasn't until last year when I got in the bad car wreck when I started taking Celexa, Paxil and Zoloft for my depression. I was 5 months pregnant when, a drunk driver hit my car and made me lose our little girl. Her name is Mariah Rose. I don't even have a picture of her. It took me a long time to get where I was and now here I am again. Lost another baby.