|Beauty Behind the Madness Z.M.|

~bullet proof nothing to lose~

i fucking hate everyone.

i can't believe i fell for it. again. the pain in my chest is indescribable and all i want to do is cry. pathetic,isn't it? he keeps leaving me. all the time. and i'm tired. he's hurting me intentionally and its not right-the way he makes me feel. the way my heart is hurting could never compare to any other pain i have ever felt-the heart hurts a thousand times more. and he makes me feel like it's my fault.

zayn testified against me. he said it was my fault and that i sold the drugs-that i was the one who sold and killed all those people.

and they believed him.

officially, i'm arrested. for a total of twelve years.

"i'm sorry nina." he said, behind the glass that restrained me. i looked down at my attire then his. i was in an orange jumper-matching with all of the criminals. only, i didn't belong with the criminals.

"so am i. im sorry that i believed you and your lies. you didn't love me-"

"i do."

"then why do you hurt me constantly?"

"im getting you out of here. i promise." zayn promises but i didn't believe him. "i have a plan."

"your plans are shit. your plans got me arrested."

"hey..listen to me, you're not staying here. i love you." he says, pressing his hand against the glass. as soon as he said the three words, i was in his trance once again. i places my hand against the wall, our palms parallel to eachother. the thick glass separated us. we were so close yet to far apart. "and i take care of those i love." he finishes.

tears glisten in my eyes as i clutch the payphone closer to my ear. "say it again. please."

"i love you, nina grace lorena."