Childhood Love

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"Why do you have to talk to her?" Grace wonders, fumbling with her fingers in the passenger seat.

"Because Grace, Mae is my friend and she just came back in town, we haven't talked for years and I want a fresh start with her." I sigh.

"Well, you guys broke up for a reason, didn't y'all? So why bother messing up again?" Grace argues.

Don't get me wrong, I love Grace, but when things don't go her way, she's not the best person to be with. Though, I don't blame her, she is just a little uneasy with having my, almost - ex - girlfriend back in town.

"Grace, don't be this way. Once you get to know Mae, you'll love her." I say.

"Yeah, if I tried, but you'll be trying to love her and where do I fit into the picture? You'll dump me for sure once you see your true feelings for her." Grace now crosses her arms and huffs.

"That's not true!" I angrily bite back, stomping my foot onto the break with more force than I should've. I've parked in front of Grace's apartment but she doesn't budge to get out of my car. "You don't understand, Mae and I got in a huge fight over you! I liked you back then and here we are sitting in the same car as boyfriend and girlfriend, so if I were to uncover my true feelings for a girl, it would still be you."

Grace's face is struck with awe because of my speech, which I was surprised cause I was improvising sort of. Though, she still leans forward and pops a kiss on my lips.

"Do you understand?" I eye her, looking deep into her brown eyes.

She nods her head, "yes, I'm sorry, I just love you so much, it scares me to think you'll leave me."

"You're the only girl I want, so you don't have to worry about that." I warmly smile down at her and then we kiss one more time before she hops out of my car.

I watch her walk into her apartment and then drive off to my own. My thoughts file through my head and now it's giving me a headache.

Mae's face when she saw Grace, it pained me to witness it. She was just so shocked and hurt, it killed me inside.

"I'm just afraid to lose you, Carson." She whispers, her hands shaking so she stuffs them into her hoodie pocket so I won't notice even though I did.

"I am too. You don't understand how much I want you to stay with me." I admit, sitting next to her on the bench.

"But why me? Why me when you could have any other girl?" She sighs.

"Because you're sweet, and kind, and funny, and pretty, you're all of that Mae." I honestly state.

"Thank you." She stutters, lowering her face to the ground so she thinks I can't see her pink face.

"Hey, do you remember that time at camp?" I ask.

"You mean the camp that we ruined for everybody and got busted big time? Yeah, I remember." Her sarcastic remark leaves me chuckling a little.

"Well, even though I know we regret a lot we did, the one thing I definitely don't regret is getting the chance to spend time you, because that was the best time for me out of that entire week."

The breeze picks up, and I hug my Nike jacket tighter around my body. The falling leaves shuffle through the grass and the bare branches of trees rock back and forth from the whistling wind.

"You know what, I think that's the thing I also will never regret. I loved spending time with you even though it meant I got in trouble later on in life." She turns to face me finally and smiles sweetly.

I return her grin, "yeah, the only thing is, I wish I never wrote those letters to you, I was stupid back then."

She laughs, "it's okay. I still like you even if they were just a tiny bit cheesy."

She pinches her fingers to represent how cheesy my note skill was and I only smile and roll my eyes. "Whatever, how's this for ya?"

I lurch forward and begin to tickle her and she squeals and breaths heavily, trying to find air. She keeps giggling non stop, forcing a laugh out of me because she's so cute when she laughs. I finally stop and she sits up, taking big gulps of air at a time.

"Cheesy now?" I show off a smug smile and now it's her turn to roll her eyes at me, but continues to show off her pretty smile.

"Definitely." She replies . . .

I snap out of my thoughts when I stop in front of my apartment. It's weird because I say I love Grace, but, no matter how much I try, my minds always on Mae now.

»» Okay readers, do you think he actually loves Grace? Or do you believe his heart belongs with Mae??? Give me your thoughts!!! Love ya!!! <3