Angel Valhalla

Thirty-one

I looked at him w stone cold blue eyes, "H-how do you know that?" I breathed out. Seriously, how did he? I myself could barely grasp what I felt for Cam. If had felt like a dream. The pain in my chest was the only proof I had of what once happened between us, so for this other soul to know of that was mind blowing to me.

"How? Pure dedication Lilith. That's really all to it. Just know that I've always been there. Watching. I was there at the wedding, at the bar-hell I was there when your friend got killed. Nate and Scarlett led me to Cam actually. Nate had a criminal record-which by the way was really easy for me to get my hands on. I just had to follow Nate for months. He never changed his ways, always involved with really bad people. It's no wonder he ended up the way he did. Eventually he lead me to Cam once again. Cameron counted on him to be a distributor. You probably didn't know that. You think Cam would just sell drugs to Nate like that? No? Cam doesn't sell drugs to anyone. At least not in small quantities. Cam needed a distributor and that's what Nate did for him. He sold drugs at night clubs or wherever he could to whomever. At least that was back then. Before Cam got as big as he is now. But they still kept in touch and ever so often Nate would buy drugs from Cams people for himself. I've none of Cams whereabouts for a while now. Or at least most of how whereabouts. But I didn't have enough evidence, besides, I didn't want him to go out like that no. I want him to suffer and regret every breath he took up until now. And then you came along. Pretty little Lilith. A weakness in Cam's armor. That monster has gone through so many girls, but none he cared for as much as he cared for you and I took advantage of that. Then this little wonderful opportunity came alone to meet you when that shoot out happened and Nate died."

I looked at him with mixed colors of rage. For talking so casually about Nate's death. For using me. For just being such a shitty human. "So what now? You use me as bait?"

Detective Wolf rolled his eyes,"You're so annoying. I'm not even sympathetic about using you for this in the least bit." He said as he casually shoved something in my mouth gagging me. It was sharp and tasted bland. I spat it out and landed on my lap. It was crunched up picture. I could make out one blue eye. I didn't have to unfold it to know that it was a picture of Cam.

So much anger ran through me in that moment.

Ughh! Damn that man. And Nate too. Of course he sold drugs for Cam. He would do that.

I let my head fall back and closed my eyes. So what now? What would happen. He shows up- and then something hit me.

My eyes went wide open.

He was counting on Cam showing up to save me?! Because he thought Cam cared enough about me to do that?! A weird feeling made it's way to my chest and I bit my lip until I tasted blood.

Ughhhhhhhh!!!!!

Why did he make me feel this way! I told myself this wasn't going to happen. I was going to forget about him. But when I was out into situations like this, I couldn't do that. All I could do was think about, the color of his eyes, the smell of his cologne. The way his hair felt on my fingers, coarse and thick. The way he looked at me.

Ughhhhh!!!! I balled up my fists.

"DAMN YOU CAM KINGSLEY!!!" I yelled at the top of my lungs not caring wether Wolf would hear me.
That was the battle cry for what happened next.

Shadows random through out the room, bringing a thunder of boots clapping against the floor. I looked around me.

"Wolf, you're surrounded. Show yourself!" One of the shadows yelled.

It was... the police?

Then out of nowhere, I was snatched by my hair, and something cold and was placed against the side of my temple. I knew that touch. A gun.

"No, this is not fair! You have the wrong man?! It's Kingsley who you should be after! IVE DONE NOTHING WRONG. NOTHING!" Wolf yelled at the top of his lungs. Red violent rage shot through his words. I tried to look around me, with what little movement I could manage.

He was surrounded. Guns blazing and pointing at him. All stone eyes locked on him. Set with determination.

"Give it up Wolf. You were fired from the police force a long time ago. You defied orders, stole classified files and information from the police. You can't keep acting on your judgement. You're deranged. This is not the way to do things, so please,"it was a tall man who spoke. He must have been the leader of the swat team. He held his gun with so much force you could see red veins popping from his neck and what must have been a pale face was bright red and coated in sweat. Probably from shouting so much," put the gun down. Do it as your last act of justice."

A moment of silence went by.

And then, I heard the gun click, " No." he boldly said," If I can't kill him with my own two hands, then I'll just do something that will absolutely destroy him."

For the first time in a forever I was scared. No, not scared. Terrified. My heart stopped. This was it. The chronicles of Lilith Grey ended here. I saw deep blue eyes in my mind. Not Cam's. Not mine. My dads. I never got to tell him how much I loved him. How much I loved him. Then my moms green eyes looked back at me. She was a terrible mother but a mother in the end. And I loved her. Every part of me did. She was my mom. I loved her. Just as much as I loved my dad. Then Maria's brown worn eyes. Maria whom I cared about so much. Just as much as I did for both my parents. Lacey's baby blue eyes flashed in my mind next. Oh Lacey, fuck! I wished I could have have said goodbye. She meant so much to me. So much had been taken from me, and she had given it to me back. And lastly, his eyes. I let go. I unfolded like a rose coming into bloom and admitted to myself. I loved Cam. So much and so deeply. I think I loved him. My perception of love was so fucked up, but I knew I did. He never left my mind, always there in the back. I loved him, I loved him, I so very deeply loved him.  Who knows if he felt the same way. Would he have came to my rescue? Did he know how much I loved him? I wish he did. I would never come to terms with what happened with him and Nate. It would always hurt. Like a splinter stuck in my chest, constantly reminded me of what occurred. But I loved Cam so greatly and I could not deny that. And then pain spread through out my chest at the thought of my parents sadness when they found out the news. About their terrible daughter who got caught up in stupid shit again. Would everyone talk about me, like how they talked about Nate? Damn me, damn my luck. I thought I could change it. I should have been able to. I was going to go to  school, and do something with my pathetic life. But now, I was being robbed of that. And it was terrifying it was. I wanted to cry. But I didn't. My eyes were dry. I closed my eyes, and calmed down my breathing. In the end, I lived a shitty life.

Fire flared ringing loud in my ears.

This was it.

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