Angel Valhalla

Thirty-four

I had made my mind up. I had slept for hours, restless as the thought of you disappearing from my life tortured my mind.

This was insane. I was loosing sleep over a blue eyed man and I couldn't stop my self from doing it because those blue eyes were engraved in my mind and I just couldn't think of any other pair of eyes. Everything else's had been cut from my life, the simple possibility of meeting someone new was out the window. Lilith grey was head over heels over this blue eyed man and she wasn't going to let him leave her like that. What he'd said earlier had rocked me a little but i wasn't going to give up. I wished I had never pushed him out, but then again I couldn't help but to want to distance myself back then. I couldn't hold it against him either for wanting to move. Ughhh. Why was this so difficult? Well whatever, all was fair in love and war and Lilith gray was going to do whatever it took.

"Damn, over me so quickly?" Lacey said popping a cherry in her mouth and flipping  through a rolling stone magazine as laid  in my bed.

"Stop Lacey, im serious. I love him, it sounds so lame but i don't want to let go of him. I can't. What I have with him I know for a fact I won't find w anyone. It's hard to explain-I don't know-I just know that I can't let him go. Not again."

I sighed helplessly picking at my cuticles until it bled.

"I saw her you know."

This caught my attention. I looked up almost immediately.

"saw who?"

"Your replacement. "

I immediately dropped my hands and crawled over to Lacey on the bed and snatched the magazine out of her hands.

"When did you see her? Is she pretty? Are her boobs bigger than mine? Was she nice? What does she look like? Oh my god Lacey why didn't you tell me?!" I threw the magazine behind my shoulder "great, he probably found himself some hot bombshell. Have you seen Cam? He's freaking beautiful. Did you see Scarlett? She was drop dead gorgeous! "

"I didn't see her for that long actually, just got a quick snipet of her and..." she sat up and sat criss crossed right before snatching the magazine from behind me. "She's fucking beautiful Lilith." She finished her sentence and resumed reading.

Great. I knew it.

"But it's okay." She added blandly without taking her eyes off the magazine. "Lilith, she's literally a carbon copy of you. That's why I say she's beautiful. Jesus Christ she's jut a fucking rebound Lilith!" She threw her hands in the air, magazine and all.

Then she leaned in closer and crossed her arms, "Her names Chloe. She's the daughter of a family friend. Apparently her and Cam go waaaaay back. They went to the same private school. They had a thing freshman year, but then her parents sent her away to study abroad. She finished school over there and now she's back. She taller than you, brown long wavy hair, blue eyes, huge ass, huge tits. She's like, idk how to explain it...curvier..? Well what I'm trying to say is she's got more meat on her her than ya do, get what I'm saying. She seemed really stuck up when I saw her but hey that's just me-"

"Hold up, hold up! How the hell do you know all of this?" I cut her off as I tried to maintain my sanity.

Lacey suddenly went really stiff and quiet.

"Is there something you're not telling me..?" I added when she remained quiet.

"Okay, okay so I might have sorta of hung out w James. No biggie. He just let me stick around for a while while you were taking care of drunk Cam. He's pretty cool actually. Anyways, Chloe stopped by which freaked the shit out of James and he had to invent all these lies to get her to leave because she would have totally freaked if she saw you and Drunk Cam together. And then after she left I started asking all these questions and voila! Presto! I got all that from James. " Lacey finished with a really pleased look on her face.

"What the fuck?! What the actual fuck! High school sweethearts? How the fuck am I gonna compete with that! He has history with her! Besides, I can't just tempt him into getting back with me! He's with her! That'd be such a shitty thing for me to do! I have to respect his relationship, but at the same time, what the actual fuck!? What do I do with these feelings?"

"Jesus fucking Christ, he fucking loves you, you idiot. He fucking sent a whole army of men to rescue you! You want my opinion? Of course you do, I'm you're fucking best friend. I say let him and her do there thing. It won't work out. I know he loves you, I know he does. Just give him time. If he doesn't love you, he'll find it easy to move on and by then would you really be sad about losing him? If he got over you so easily? No, you don't want that. Like I said, give him time. He's subconsciously using her to get over you, I know it. Trust me. He'll come around. Eventually. Don't give up. As for, I gotta go. James and I are meeting for a milkshake at 'Stake n' shake'. " she quickly got up and picked up her long board.

"Wait, what? You and James? At stake and shake? James? Thee James?" I tried to picture stuck up, stern James dressed in his suit sitting in a stake n shake booth surrounded by teenagers.

"Yes that James. I like the kid. He's fun to fuck around with. He also can keep up w my sarcastic comments. I like two think we're both two sides of the same coin. Don't give me shit about it, please. I gotta go, try not to think too much about this Cam situation. Laters." She said and disappeared out my door before I could reply.

I stared at my door for a second or two trying to register everything she had just said and by the end all I could say was a simple "okay" that I murmured to myself right before I threw myself on my bed and hid under all the pillows.

She was right. I had to just let this go for now. Besides, I had orientation in two days. I almost forgot I would start college soon.

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