Broken- Louis Tomlinson fanfiction

Chapter 15

Louis POV

Song: Moments

I watch as tears streamed down her red cheeks, breaking my heart slowly.

"I get it." she marched off into my room, slamming the door loudly. I ruined it.

I put my head in my hands. I knew I would regret this so much- but it was the right thing to do. Right? I was making the right decision right?

But the worst part about this is I'm doing it for myself; I'm being selfish. And she didn't deserve that. But she'd forget about me, she'd move on. She'll get better and have the help she needs, and will totally forget I ever existed.

Ember's POV:

How could he do this to me? I thought he cared, and I thought he understood me. I'd told him everything! I knew this would happen, this always happens to me. No one has time for me. But Louis promised me he'd keep me safe, and he loved me. That was a lie. Everything is a lie! What do I have now? Nothing.

I hear him knock at the door.

"Go away!" I yell at him, my voice cracking.

"Ember, please I-"

"Please just leave." I whispered, chocking on my sobs.

He opens the door. I stay in place, my head in my hands sitting on the side of bed. I feel his touch on my arm. I wanted nothing more to be held in his touch. To be safe and warm, assuring me that everything was going to be okay. But I couldn't. He would never hold me like he had before. I push him away. As much as I want him to hold me- it wont be the same.

"Ember. It's the only thing left to do- I-" I interrupted him.

"Really?! A Mental hospital? That's your answer Louis! I thought you cared about me," I break down once more "You-you would never send me to a place like that- apparently I was wrong." Tears flew from my eyes.

"Ember you don't understand- I care about you so much, I just can't live like this anymore. And it kills me. Ember: It kills me to do this. But it's the only thing I can do to keep myself from hurting any longer. It's because I care." he explains. Thats a load of bullshit.

"Your not hurting me."

"Yes I am. Ever since I brought you here."

"You think me being here made me worse?! Louis I would be dead without you! And ever since I came here I had hope of having a better, normal life. You changed my mine Louis. I love you. A-and I thought you loved me. You promised me that you'd keep me safe just last night. Thats when I knew that you where right for me and everything was going to get better. And now what Louis? huh?" I couldn't stop, my sobs escaped harshly and violently.

"I am going to keep you safe. I'm going to visit you all the time. I do love you. I love you so much- that's why it's so hard to do this." he pleaded. I wasn't sure if it was me or not, but, I think I saw a single tear fall from his cheeks.

"So thats it. All of this for nothing. All the time we spent is wasted." I put my head in my hands once again, feeling hot tears make there way into the sweater I wore. I felt Louis' hand on my shoulder. I shove him away.

"Ill get my things," I took in a sharp breath and stomped into our-no- Louis' closet and found everything I owned and my bag that I had when I came here. I loaded everything in the bathroom, and managed to pack it all on one big bag. I looked at the sweatshirt I was wearing. It was Louis'. I threw it off leaving me in a t-shirt. I threw it at Louis. "Here." I wiped my eyes.

"No. Please keep it." he gave it back "I want you to have it."

I took it. I knew it was a weak gesture. But I needed to have a part of Louis. Even if it's some lame sweatshirt.

I still couldn't believe i was leaving him.

"When do we leave." I stated looking at the ground. I didn't want to fight anymore. I didn't want to look at him; because I know I wont be seeing him in where I'll be going.

"3 hours. I'm driving you to the hospital." he says. Great! Looks like he's already planned this out! (Sarcasm intended)

I nodded.

"I just want to be alone, please." I say

I didn't look up, or hear him say a word. All I heard was the soft shutting of the door. And as soon as he left I collapsed on the bed, and cried.

Louis' vanilla scent filled my nostrils, making me cry harder into his sheets. I hugged his pillow wishing for me to wake up and be in the serenity of Louis' strong arms. Him assuring me every second that he loves me. But that was just a dream.

• • •

The radio played quietly, as always. His chest falling and rising and falling, the sound of the turn signal coming off and on occasionally. I never noticed much of any of these things. But now I know I'm going to miss them.

Another tear I helplessly fell from my eye. The reality hitting me harshly. I wipe it without letting Louis see.

By my surprise, Louis took hold of my hand. And I let him. I wanted to feel his touch again. I wanted to be with Louis.

The car ride went by too quickly. And when the car stopped he let go of my hand and went out of the car. I waited a second and followed behind with my bag. We walked in and I sat in one of the waiting chairs while Louis checked me in. I know in just a few short minutes I wont see Louis- for who knows how long. I know that I'm going to be surrounded and demanded by strangers. I'll have no one. I wont have Louis. I'd do anything to stay.

Louis took a seat next to me. I looked at him, his crystal, shy blue eyes. His beautiful mess of a hair. The little bags that laid under his eyes. The messed up Vans he wore that he called his shoes. I loved every detail of him. I liked the idea of him. I looked away quickly without him noticing. What was I going to do? I fee so helpless at this point.

And before I knew it. My doctor called my name. He told me that they where taking me to a different building and I was in safe hands. Louis stood next to me. He looked so broken. Tears lined his eyes, same as mine. I didn't want to say goodbye. The doctor shuffled me away from Louis. I didn't want to go!

"Wait!." I went back and hugged Louis. I held onto him tightly, sobbing into his chest. He immediately braced me back.

"I don't want to go." I cried

"I know, know. But I promise. Em t-they are going to take care of you." he said. His voice failing back his cries.

"Louis. I love you."

"I love you too okay? I promise you'll be safe. You have to go now." I feel one of his tears fall onto my neck. I nodded. I didn't want to go. Then he kissed me. It wasn't long, but it was full of meaning and love. When we let go. He managed to pull him off me. The doctor started shuffling me away. But this time I couldn't go back. I kept my eyes on Louis.

"Louis," I pleaded as I got farther away from him. The doctor was bringing me in a different room. No! I wanted Louis. But I was pulled in the room.

And Louis was no where in sight.