Broken- Louis Tomlinson fanfiction

Chapter 21

Ember's POV

I awoke drenched in sweat, and tears in my eyes. I almost let out a scream, but then noticed I was in my room.

It's been a week since I went to see Louis, and every night since I've been having nightmares. Sometimes they don't happen and sometimes they do. Once I went a month without them, and it was great. But then it started up again. I keep reliving all the times I was hurt, and it's killing me. I would never want to go through all that stuff again. And now I have no idea what's real and what's not.

I didn't feel safe. Usually I would feel fine with Harry when he stayed at Louis'. But every night he did, I knew Louis would always come back home. And now, I know he's not coming back. I need to forget him. I want to forget him, so I can move on.

I moved myself from the bed and walked to the hallway quietly. It was dark, and I could only hear quiet cars passing by on the wet streets outside.

I tiptoed across the hall into Harry's bedroom. I could hear his slight snores, and see is body laid out on the bed peacefully. I felt bad, but I did it anyway. I shook his shoulder slightly, but enough to wake him.

"Harry?" I whispered

"Em. What's wrong.." he said in a raspy voice.

"I had a nightmare." I say shyly

He understood and scooted over on the bed. "It's alright, you can sleep in here," he offered. I nod and lay in the spot next to him, pulling the blankets he left on top of my shivering body. I faced Harry and saw that his eyes where on me.

"What was the nightmare?" he whispered.

"Just a bad memory." I answer not fully telling him, but kinda telling him.

"It's okay." he says pulling back a stray piece of my hair and tucking it under my ear. I blush a little, hoping he didn't see my flushed face in the dark.

You might think this is awkward, but it's not. He was just acting different, but in a nice way.

I don't know why, but I leaned in and kissed his cheek, lingering by his neck slowly. I could feel the heat radiating off his body, making me want to fall asleep in his arms. I felt his hand touch my torso, holding me closer. We didn't talk, just laid there together, close. It's never been like this with us. But it was nice, and comforting. Yet, something just didn't feel right, being with him wouldn't feel right. However I liked this feeling I had, so I didn't let go.

His hand laid still on my side, hovering over small, hypnotizing circles. I don't know what hit me, but I had the urge to kiss him. I wouldn't though. I couldn't. I didn't want to get hurt again, and loose mine and Harry's relation ship.

So I rested my head under his, almost in the crook of his neck. I laid my hand on his forearm, letting it fall there comfortably. I closed my eyes and released all the tension from my body, and relaxed in his touch.

"Good night." he whispered in my ear, slightly tickling my skin, making me smile.

"Night."

Louis POV *ONE WEEK AGO*

"Who was at the door?" I ask meeting Eleanor by the door just as she shuts it.

"I don't know, it was some girl. She just knocked on the door and then ran away. Weird," she sighs walking past me and back into the kitchen where she had been moments before. I stood there thinking. But once my mind came to it, I knew what I was thinking was right. I could be Ember. Harry told me he had gotten her out. My first thought was to go see her, but I need to figure out what I'm going to say to her. I have no idea what I'm going to say. I don't even know how to explain to her how I just left. Now I feel horrible.

"Dinner's ready!" El calls out from the kitchen.

I eat dinner with Eleanor talking about something on, and on. I wasn't paying attention enough to care, my mind was in a different place. It seems when everything that involves Ember, I just can't keep my mind off of it. She takes over my mind. Just everything about her. When I finished dinner we both are settled on the couch watching a film.

I'm still wrapped in my thoughts until El's lips are placed on mine. I kiss back slowly,she brakes away, then leans in again for another kiss. But I stop her, only imagining Embers lips.

"Whats wrong?" she asks confused

"Nothing I'm just- I don't know tired." I mumble

"Whatever. You've been acting real weird and I'm getting bored of it Louis." she huffs annoyed and angered with me, standing up.

"Wait. where are you going?"

"Out. Maybe I'll have something to do when I leave this depressing place." she rolls her eyes and leaves, just like that. I don't blame her I've been ignoring her all day. No wonder no women wants to be around me, I'm so boring. Oh wait...Louis, it wasn't Ember's choice to leave, IT WAS YOURS. My thoughts tell me.

I rub my face and let out a grunt. What am I doing wrong? Everything should be perfect. I have a beautiful girlfriend, a good job that makes fine money, a family, friends, yet I'm depressed and tired almost all of the time. I don't even bother to go get El, I'll just let her be angry for a while, then I'll call her or something.

I can't help but let my mind wonder what Ember is doing, or, if that really was her running from my door. It had to be, who else would see El and just run off? She ran off because she knew I was still with El, the girl I practically took as a distraction. And as you can see- that wasn't working out so well.