Broken- Louis Tomlinson fanfiction

Chapter 18

Louis' POV

"Your a fucking ass Louis, I hope you know that." then he slammed the door with a loud bang, almost making the room shake.

"Fuck!" I yell out loud knocking over a vase on the table, making it crash to the floor in millions of pieces.

Not bothering to clean up, I collapse on the couch.

I wasn't mad at Harry. I was mad at myself. I wanted to rip my hair out and scream at the top of my lungs. Instead I buried my head into a pillow and cried my heart out.

I was making Ember worse, it was all my fault. And I've done nothing but ignore her when she needs me the most. Putting her in that place was bad, but I didn't know what else to do. When the doctor suggested ti I thought he was out of his mind. Then I put more thought into it and realized it would be best for me, and her. But it was selfish because I knew I was just doing it because I couldn't take care of her the way professionals could.

But I missed her.

I missed the way she could make me forget about my demons and worries. Or the way she could make the whole room bright up when she smiled. I missed her because I had fallen deeply in love with her. Maybe too deep, because I couldn't just forget her.

And Harry was going to take her. He was going to give her a home. And I would be here living a lie. I didn't want to picture them together, what if she fell in love with him? I don't know what I would do. Harry wouldn't do that, would he? I swear if he tries to so much as kiss her I will fucking-

"RING! RING!" a phone interrupts me. I stand up and wipe my eyes before answering. It was Eleanor.

"Hey hon, you still up to go over to Liam's tonight? Since Danni moved in they wanted to finally have that double date." she chirps happily. Danielle -or also known as Danni-was Liams girlfriend that just moved in. El and her where great friends.

"Sure, when do you want me to pick you up?" I ask in a somewhat normal voice.

"I'm just gonna meet you at your place in 10 if thats alright?"

"Of course. I'll go get ready. See you soon." I say

"Alright bye babe."

"Bye."

As soon as I hung up the phone I cleaned up the shattered glass on the floor from my small outburst. After that I cleaned myself up and got ready. I did my hair in a quiff and wore a nice button down. When El arrived I was just pulling on my nice dress shoes.

The door opened to reveal a stunning Eleanor. She had her hair in curls (which I loved) and she wore a beautiful above the knee dress. She always looked amazing.

"Hi beautiful," I smiled, pulling her in a hug.

"You look great." she smiled and kissed me on the lips. She smelled like roses.

"Why thank you, are we ready to go me lady?" I say in a royal monotone. she giggles and we leave my apartment. I hold her hand as we walk to the car. The drive to Liam's was nice. Eleanor talked about the classes she took in uni.

I never attended collage. My parents didn't have the money, and the only thing I was good at in my school was performing arts. I wasn't smart at all really. I never read one school book, yet, I managed to graduate high school. I wouldn't say graduate- I would say survived. Since All I could do was sing and act (yes. I suck at dancing) people hadn't taken a liking to me at all. I didn't have much friends and people would pick on me a lot. I got bullied- but doesn't everyone?

By the time we got to Liam's I hadn't said a word.

"Lou?" El said

"Yeah babe?"