Chance.

Chapter 7: Meetings.

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I turn in then bed as I open my eyes. I see Niall is sleeping...next to me. Though he stayed to himself, like he has been for the past few days, and I like that about him. I like everything about him.
Maura and the rest leave back for Ireland on 10th of Feb. It's quite in the house. No more Theo running around. No more Maura giving me smirks every time Niall came around. No more Denise and Greg to talk to. I see Niall laying on the couch, busy on his mobile. My feelings for him grow every time I look at him. I can stare at him like this for... forever. 10 Feb, a month and 5 days since I was pushed in his life. I am glad that I was, he's so nice to me. I like him a lot and it gets more everyday.
I check my twitter account 10,722 followers, Being Niall's wife has given me a little fame. I don't care about it, being with Niall is so much more then fame. It's about being happy with him. Because even though he doesn't know it he makes me so happy.
I look at my user name "Emmy Elizabeth" I put that because I thought I wasn't ready for Horan back then. I didn't put Tanner because then it wouldn't have looked like we are in love. I look at Niall, he is still on his mobile, I look at my wedding ring. It's something I do about 10 times in a hour. I go in settings and change Elizabeth to Horan. After all that is my last name. I wonder what Niall will say when he finds out that I changed it. He wanted it to be "Horan" from the beginning, but he wanted that because that way people would believe we are in love. I want it to be Horan because I actually like Niall, and I am ready to admit that my last name is Horan.
Yeah we pretend that we are in love, we hold each others hand when we go out, so people would believe that. Niall is so nice, that's the only thing that I don't like... pretending... yes I see why we do that. But I want his feelings to be real and not just a pretend game. We can't always live like this... just pretending.
"Hey." He says giving me a fright."You changed your name on twitter."
He's smiling. "Yeah, I thought it'd be better this way." I tell him.
He sits up then says."It is." If only he knew I am not pretending like he is. I go and sit next to him.
He smiles at me."Tell me something." He says.
"Yeah?"
"Why do you prefer Emmy over Emma?" He asks me looking straight in my eyes. I look at my ring again. Should I tell him? Will he think it's stupid? I look at him, no he won't. He's not someone who judges people like that.
"Because." I start.
"Yeah?" He asks me.
"Because my mom called me Emma." I tell him."No one else called me Emma, and if someone else does it I just you know want her to be with me."
He looks at me then says."She's with you."
I give him a questioning look, he smiles at me then says."Right in your heart."
This makes my day. I like it  how he understands me. I like it how he always knows what to say to make me feel better. I smile at him."You know you really made me feel better."
He smiles at me then says."I won't call you Emma if you don't want me to."
I look at him, he really is serious right now. To think about it, it's okay I want him to call me Emma. So I never forget my mother.
"Actually." I tell him."Call me Emma if you want."
He lifts his left eyebrow then asks "Why, so you can tell me Emmy, it's Emmy?"
I laugh at this."No." I tell him. He looks at the floor then says."I like calling you Emma."
Why? Does he not like Emmy? I wanted to ask him this before, now is my chance.
"Why?" I ask him.
He looks at me and then quickly looks away then says."You won't understand."
Why? Is it so bad? Or does he think I am so stupid that I can't understand why he wants to call me Emma? Here's my chance to ask. "Why?" I ask him.
"That is also something you won't understand." He says and looks away again.
I am so confused. Is he mad at me now? I can't let him be mad at me. "Ok." I say."Don't be mad at me."
He quickly looks at me then says."I am not mad at you, I don't think I can ever be."
My heart is melting. He just told me he can never be mad at me. I smile at him. I know it'd be awkward and wrong if I do this. But he did it too, I am thinking if I should but before I decide I do it anyway, I kiss him on the cheek and say."Ok." He looks at me as I leave.
I think what he meant by you won't understand?  But I don't get it.
He comes in the room then says."The lads will come tomorrow around 6:00."
Oh my god. I am finally going to meet them. Relax it's ok, you are married to a member anyway.
"Great." I say excitedly, he smiles and leaves.