Chance.

Chapter 9: Never happened.

Quote of the chapter^. Enjoy 💕

I am telling him today I don't care what. I flip the egg in the frying pan. My turn to make him breakfast like he usually does it for me. Niall... Niall is just so amazing and so perfect and I can't control but fall for him more and more every day.
"That's a nice smell." He says starling me, I turn away to see him right behind me. My thoughts had occupied me so much that I didn't hear him come.
"I am making you breakfast today." I tell him.
He looks in the frying then says."Yeah, I can see that."

I see him watching the T.V after we finish our breakfast. I go and sit down next to him. I stay quiet because I don't know how to tell it. But I don't care what...I am telling him about my feelings today and if I don't then I am a just a stupid little coward. "You are quiet today." Niall says.
"Niall." Okay this is it I am telling him.
"Yes?"
How am I telling him? No idea!
"I...I have to talk to you." I tell him weakly. Have strength Emmy if you show weakness now you will just fail.
"Talk away." He tells me but he has more attention on the show then he has on me right now. "It's important." I tell him. He turns off the T.V and silently turns towards me. "Is something wrong?" He asks me.
I am panicking right now. Am about to mess this all up for me?"Enjoyed the breakfast today?" Yes I just messed up my chance.
He laughs then says."You made me miss one of my favorite show to talk about food?"
"Yes." I am such a liar.
"Well it's fine because I think food is really important in a person's life... especially mine."
He says ending his sentence with another great laugh. I weakly smile at him then say."Well you usually make it for me so I thought I should make it for you today."
"Sweet of you." He says with a smile."I liked it."
I look at my ring again."But." He begins as I look up at him."This isn't what you wanted to talk about is it?"
Not even close. "No." I say.
"Then tell me what's the problem." He says looking straight in my eyes. Oh those perfect blue eyes melt me.
"Niall." I say.
"Emmy just tell me." He says.
"Ok." I start. Here it goes."This is going to be weird to talk about especially because I don't know how to."
"It won't matter." He tells me with a smile. It probably will when I tell you what it is.
"I won't be surprised if you laugh at my face or something." I tell him as I look away.
"I know I laugh a lot." He tells me."But if it's something that's bugging you I wouldn't laugh."
"I like you." I say slowly as I see shock forming on his face. There I said it. I just told him.
"What?" He asks me slowly.
I look away as I say."Niall I know this marriage was forced and that this is awkward and I know I am not good for you but now that we are in this situation can't we try to make it work and not not just pretend I know this is wrong and I shouldn't feel this way but I just can't help myself... I just want to see if we can actually do this... actually I know we can... but I know you won't you know feel the same and it's just so weird and I just." I could have gone on and on forever but I had to stop when I felt his lips on mine. I quickly opened my eyes to see if he really was kissing me. Yes he is. I kiss him back. He likes me? This kiss is nothing the way I thought it would be it's so much better.
It lasts for no longer then 5 seconds but it seems so much longer. He lets go of me, before I could smile or even have the time to react. He says."Sorry." And goes away really quickly.
Did he just apologize for kissing me? Yes he did. Why? Thank you for kissing me Niall! But why did you say sorry? He looked confused after he let go of me. Like he didn't mean to kiss me. What just happened Niall? What did you kiss me for if you had to apologize for doing so?
He doesn't come out of the room for the next few hours and I don't go up and talk to him. It's not like we are angry with each other. It's just that we are not talking. It's getting confusing. Why did he kiss me? If he liked me back he wouldn't have reacted this way! I am sure of it. To think about it. I should never have told him how I feel. Maybe he just kissed me because he felt pity for me. No, he's not like that. Or maybe he did that to shut me up, really Emmy? No he isn't like that either. Then why Niall why? I know if he did that because he liked me he wouldn't have said sorry and he wouldn't have locked himself in the room like he has done right now. I didn't want this to end up this way. This is just awakened and wrong now. I feel the most welcomed when I am with Niall, even when we are just and just talking and right now he doesn't want to see me. At least I think he doesn't. I feel so stupid and dumb and I have no idea what to do. He kissed me.
Two more hours pass he still didn't come down, I can't do this anymore. I should talk to him... apologize for telling him I like him.
I sit and remember the way he kissed me. He was so much better then I thought he would be.
I always thought that the touch of his lips would give me butterflies. I was wrong it gave me flight itself. He wants to pretend that we are in love... here I am actually in love with him. Wait what? Did I just think that I love him. Yes I did. It just hit me. I love him. I am in love. No this is all wrong. He's escaping from this all and I just realized I am in love with him. Why does this all have to be so hard?
All of a sudden the phone rings startling me.
"Hello." I say picking the phone up.
"Emmy." I recognize Maura's voice.
"Hi Maura." I say quietly and weakly.
"What's wrong?" She asks me.
"Nothing." I lie. Oh no problem I am an expert at lying now. Especially now that I have been lying to the entire world that I am actually with my husband.
"Emmy?" She says as I look at my ring."What happened?"
"Nothing." Another lie.
"Tell me." She orders me."Is Niall okay?"
Is he? I don't know. He must be feeling so... awkward. Why? Because his stupid wife has feelings for him.
"Yes." I tell her.
"Then what's the matter?" She asks me."Did he say something?"
"He didn't say anything." I tell her.
"Did he do something?" She asks me. Before I could stop myself I tell her."He kissed me."
I hear the enthusiasm in her voice when she says."That's good Emmy, what's wrong in that?"
"And then he apologized right after." I tell her.
"He probably didn't know you like him in the first place and you know just felt bad." She tells me. She doesn't know the whole story yet.
"No." I tell her."I told him that."
"And?"
"He just kissed me and then he looked like he didn't wanted to you know what I mean?" I tell her.
"I think he likes you back." She tells me. I don't think so... plus I love him. I am in love with him. Unbelievable.
"You don't know that." I tell her.
"He never told me about how he feels for you, but I think he might." She says.
"You are saying that to cheer me up." I tell her."And if he liked me he wouldn't walk away like he did a crime or something."
"Emmy." She says."Be patient with him, I am sure you both will work this out."
Things are just getting worse. At first I just liked him... then I told him... he kissed me then apologized for doing that... then I realized I love him. I love him. This is all so confusing.

At about 8:30 I hear footsteps coming down the stairs. Oh god, he's coming.
I see him as he goes to the kitchen grabs an apple looks at me and then quickly looks away. I see him quickly go back upstairs like I am the last person he wants to see right now. Oh wait I am most probably the last person he wants to see... ever.
I don't know what I am supposed to do. Where am I even going to sleep? He doesn't  want to be around me. If he doesn't like me then why did he kiss me? I know he doesn't like me he wouldn't be doing any of this if he did have even the most tiniest amount of feelings for me.
That's it 1:30 I am really sleepy. Should I go up? Is he going to get mad? Before I could make up my mind I hear footsteps again. He comes and sits next to me."You plan to stay here all night long?" He asks me looking at the floor.
"You plan to stay in the room for life?" I ask him.
"No." He tells me."I came down."
"And went back right after." I tell him.
"At least I came." He says. Ok what are we even arguing about?
"Does this even matter?" I ask him annoyed.
"It does if you are mad at me." He says.
Me mad at him? I look at him shocked then say."Who said I am mad at you?"
"Well I just left like that... you have a right to be mad at me." He tells me.
"But I am not." I tell him.
"Emmy." He says.
"Yes?"
"You are a really nice girl." He tells me. I don't  won't to hear what he's about to say. Because he is just about to friend zone me. Who cares if we are married? "Trust me I respect your feelings and I hope you know we can talk like we usually do even when I tell you that..."
That you don't want me the way I want you.
"That I don't feel the same for you." He continues. Crush my heart. It's okay. I just found out that I love you and you just told me you don't even like me. It's okay. I always knew he didn't like me... I think now that I actually heard it from him it hurts more then I thought it would.
"It's okay Niall." I tell him."I understand."
"I am sorry for kissing you." He says. Sorry for kissing me, okay even though he doesn't like me I am glad he kissed me. I mean come on I was longing for that."I don't know what came over me."
"It's fine." I tell him."We can pretend that it never happened ok?"
"Are you sure I am forgiven?" He asks me.
"Once again Niall." I tell him looking in his blue eyes, he does look sorry."I was never mad at you."
"Emmy, trust me you are pretty...it's just that I am stupid." He tells me.
"Niall it's fine okay?"
"Sure?" He asks me.
"Yes." I tell him.
"Never happened?"
"Never happened."
"Alright then." He says with a smile."Get me something to eat cause I am starving."
I laugh as we both go to the kitchen to get something to eat.
It's okay. I am hurt that he doesn't like me... but it's okay.... we can pretend that it never happened.

That's it for this chapter. Hope you all enjoyed. Keep reading to find out what happens next.💕