Chance.

Chapter 11: Show me.

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Next morning we go out for breakfast because there is practically nothing to eat in the house. Why would there be? Nobody has been here for three months.

In the airplane, Niall and I sit together. We both talk at first then I start getting tired and really want to sleep. I don't realize it but I put my head on his shoulder, and I only find that out after I do it. It's okay I suppose. He doesn't say anything. Besides it's good for the people around. Oh wait it's a private jet there is no one else to see us doing what we are doing. I almost fall asleep but the suddenly wake up when I feel his head on mine. Did he just do that? Like me did he just forget that we don't have to pretend right now? No he didn't he was wide awake two minutes ago his mind isn't being dumb like mine was being. I mean is being. Well it feels nice to sit with him like this. I always wanted to go sit like this with my husband. Well I also wanted my husband to have feelings for me but this is as far as we can go so I have to be happy with what I have. I don't know when but I slowly drift into a nice sleep.
"Emmy." I hear his voice. I slowly open my eyes to find out Niall is right in front of my face. Oh boy I'd love to wake up and see that face every single day. "Come on we reached."
On the way to the car in the airport he grabs my hand. Yes this is so everyone can see or more like be fooled that we are in love. Definitely. There is a huge crowd around us right now. Fans and paparazzi as well. Niall is claustrophobic so I have to lead him away because well he doesn't look like he is enjoying the crowd around him.
The questions being thrown by the paparazzi are the worst. Because they remind me that we actually aren't together.
"Are you two planning to have an interview together?"
"Where did you meet?"
"Are you having kids someday?"
Kids? Gosh kill me. No way. I am 20, plus Niall doesn't even have any sort of feelings for me so I am sorry do disappoint you, we won't be having kids any time soon. Or maybe even ever. Yeah most probably ever.
When we sit in the car. I realize Niall is still holding my hand even when the car starts moving he is holding it tight. He probably doesn't realize he is doing that. And I am not telling him that he is doing that... I mean come on I love holding his hand so yeah I'll just stay shut. I look down at his hand. I see that like me is also wearing his wedding ring. I just realized it suits him. But then again what doesn't suit him? He literally looks good in everything. And he looks absolutely cute in glasses. I can't breathe when he does that... he looks cute and hot at the same time. How is that even possible? I think when you are in love even the most impossible thing seems possible, other then him feeling the same way. I wonder how would his reaction would be if I ever tell him that he looks good in glasses. In my mind I see him laughing... but I don't think he would laugh. Because Niall and I don't talk about love... we don't talk about our future. I just hope we have one. I know I am the one in love with him. But he doesn't feel that way for me. Why would he waste his entire life with someone who he doesn't even care for? He wouldn't. He would leave the person the way I left Charlie. I see how Charlie feels now... broken. But one thing I know for sure is no matter what Niall decides I am always going to support him. I am always going to be there for him... even if it's jumping off a cliff. I don't care if he likes me or not I love him so there it is. He will have to bare me wanting to help him... wanting to love him. Niall I love you... I love you. And I am so sorry that you are in this situation for me. He could have had his life with someone he actually likes if I didn't come along. I look at him staring out of the window as he still holds my hand. He still didn't realize he is doing that. Good I like it. I like his hand, it's so warm and just the right size for mine.
He looks at me, I smile at me then he looks at our hands and quickly releases mine. He then looks at me the same way he looked at me when he kissed me and then says."Sorry."
I don't get it why does he have to apologize every time he shows even a little attraction towards me.
The driver parks the car outside our house and we take out things and get out as I wonder why does he act that way.
We are so tired we both go straight to bed. He turns to me and looks in my eyes as I stare back in his blue eyes. I get lost in them. Everything in those eyes is so perfect. So peaceful. I wonder just wonder if they ever caught a pretty girl. If Niall wants to be with someone. If he does and I find out I'll let him go. Why? Because I love him.
I  am just thinking this but I accidentally say it out loud."I like your eyes."
He smiles at me then says."I like yours too." This sentence sends me to shock world. Did he just compliment me? Yes he did. Is he going to say sorry again. I look at him as he looks shock for what he just said. He opens his mouth to something but I say."Please don't apologize again."
He doesn't say anything for a while then says."You don't like it when I say sorry do you?"
"Not when you say it for something you shouldn't." I tell him.
"Like what?" He asks me.
"Like you were just about to say it because you like my eyes."
He looks at the roof then says."You know Emma that feeling when sometimes you want  to say something but you just can't?"
"Yes." I tell him, I am now also looking at the roof. He faces me and I face him too. "Well right now I am going through that feeling."
"Then try talking about it." I tell him.
"I think it's stupid." He says."I think I have stupid reasons for all of this."
"All of what?" I ask him.
"I can't tell you." He says and turns away.
I lean over towards him to his ear and say."Well when you are ready I am right here for you, I'll always be."
He doesn't say anything.

Next morning while we make breakfast he stays quite and looks at me then looks away. I know I imaging this all. He isn't really interested in me. But he does is again while we are eating breakfast."Niall are you okay?" I ask him.
He looks at me then says."Yeah, why wouldn't I be?"
"I don't know." I say taking a bite of my cereal with just the right amount of milk."You aren't talking much."
"I just umm don't feel like talking a lot." He says.
I know there is something bugging him. And I just want him to spit it out now. But I'll have to be patient and let him talk to me himself and he knows he can.
"Ok." I say."But just so you know if you have a problem."
He interrupts and says."I'll talk to you."
He stares at me as I take another bite of my cereal. I don't want to but I still ask him."Why are you looking at me like that?"
"Like what?" He asks me.
"Like I don't know just looking at me." I say.
"Because Emmy, you are beautiful." He says.
No. He just did it again. This just makes me suspicious. Does he like me now? Ok feelings change. There is a chance that he likes me now. And maybe that's why he's acting weird. Maybe that's what he wants to tell me. But then again he wouldn't say sorry like stupid people after complimenting like he is about to do now."Sorry." He says again.
"Niall, once again what are you apologizing for?" I say a bit annoyed.
He just looks at his breakfast and mumbles something like."I don't know."
Why can't he tell me what going through him? I am here to help him. It's not like I'll kill him if he tells me what's wrong. Niall why? Tell me how you feel. And I promise I'll help you.

Later when we are watching T.V together we start talking about his band members."Harry does have fluffy hair." I tell him.
"You felt it?" He asks me shocked.
"Yes." I tell him."Harry laughed his head off when I told him I want to feel his hair."
Niall starts laughing then says."You felt my hair too."
I automatically move my hand in his hair then say."Yeah I did and trust me your hair is pretty soft too."
"Really?" He asks me.
"Yes." I say."I like your hair."
"Whatever I think your hair is still the best." He tells me.
Was that another compliment? He likes my hair.
"Really?" I ask him.
"Yup." He says."I think you are great in general."
Ok what's wrong with him? He's making me curious. Please like me Niall please.
I don't know why but it just comes out of my mouth."Why are you saying this stuff Niall?"
"What stuff?" He asks me.
Or maybe he's just saying this all to make me feel better. I hope that's not the reason.
"You know what I mean." I tell him looking straight in his perfect blue eyes.
"It's just the truth." He tells me."I am just being honest."
So he really likes my eyes, my hair and he really thinks I am beautiful? But can't he like me?
"Well then thanks." I tell him. He smiles back at me, though I know he's hiding something. Oh for the love of god I am in love with him. I can figure out when he's hiding things for me. I don't know what but I know he's hiding something.

At night when we are going up he grabs my hand I look down on what he just did. Like the night on the airport he doesn't realize he did that. He looks down at our hands then quickly releases then says."Sorry."
That's it I am about to lose it. Is he apologizing to make me nuts? Because if that's the reason it's working.
"Niall." I almost shout."Stop apologizing if you accidentally show some affection towards me."
Opps. I wasn't supposed to say that affection part. But to my greatest surprise he says."I am sorry for acting this way, I can't help it."
Then how about you tell me what's going through your mind Niall. Just tell me what are you hiding from me. "Niall just talk to me." I say as I sit down on a step. He sits next to me then says."Emma, if I tell you this all, will you tell me the same thing back?"
"How can I tell you anything when you won't even tell me what's wrong with you right now." I say looking straight in his eyes.
"I know what I said before but things can change right?"
"Yes." I tell him.
"Ok then I'll say it but you have to promise me, you'll tell me the same thing back."
"I promise." I tell him.
He looks away then says."Can I just show you instead?"
"Show me?" Show me how? What is he going to show me? If he likes me he can say it. That makes it obvious that he doesn't like me and something else is bugging him and he is just about to show me.
"Yes." I tell him."Show me."

Cliff hanger. That's it for this chapter! Find out what does Niall have to "show" in the next chapter. Hope you enjoyed.💕