A Free Life

Chapter 13

May 16, 2015

I've written so many of these letters. Most of them are just a mess up of this one in particular. For Rain I gave a piece of my thoughts. For my parents I gave a reason why. For you I don't know. I guess I just can't pretend anymore. James I just don't know anymore. Nothing makes sense anymore. You're like my brother and leaving you hurts. And I don't have any Idea how I am going to write the next letter. Maybe I won't, but James I am leaving. I hope to god someone will save me. Please do save me. Anyone who finds this letter save me. If you don't save me, well then I'm gone.

And I don't know if I will be coming back.. My god, this is harder than I thought, writing your thought can hurt more than I thought.

I know you. I know people. You will blame yourself for not being able to save me. You couldn't have stopped me. You didn't know. You didn't know. If you don't find these letters before I leave, don't blame yourself. Please. I beg of you. Don't. You can't save me. It's too late. I can hope all I want, but deep down I know my life in this town is over. And I am gone. I can't do it anymore; Life; living; fake smiles; fake laughter. I give up.

I'm done lying. I'm done.

~Rebecca